Never say I'm no ordinary person in your life when you knew that you're gonna hurt me. Never say you're gonna try your best to look after my heart when you don't even make an effort to. You should not even apologised cause you ruined my happily ever after when by the end of the day, you'll still have a happy ending. The word sorry is pointless to me when you can't even feel my pain. Yes, I've learn not to forgive and forget that easily. Furthermore, you don't deserve to be forgiven. You're not a man, but a mannequin. You're sucha heartless creature! Well, all guys are heartless creatures. You're no different. I wanted to beg you to stay but I know very well you wouldn't. Cause eventhough she hurt you a thousand times, I'm still nothing compared to her. Now it's only proven I'm vulnerable to believing lies but it's also proven that I'm vulnerable to putting too much hope and of course, believe in empty promises. Now I've got a hole in my heart, again. Dangz!

Nurul, I need a hug. )': And Ruqq, thanks for the listening ear. It's much appreciated, dude!

Anyways, yesterday was another mundane day. Supposed to meet Chacha bestie and it was cancelled at the last minute. -.- So, I read New Moon and fell asleep for a few hours. Woke up then shower and everything. I then lied on my bed as I continue with my reading and msg-ing that someone when he break the terrible news to me. Tears automatically rushed down my cheeks. It was so sudden and I really don't know how to react towards it. Fuck yeah, it's gonna be a little hard but I'll manage and survive. After all, I've been hurt countless of times. This is nothing and I'm gonna get over this sooner or later.

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Yesterday was another mundane day. Plus I wasn't in a very good mood due to some personal reasons. I spent most of the time staring blankly at my laptop screen and chatted on MSN. Around 5.30pm, Mum called and asked if I wanted to come down to SB-SE for last time before it closes down. I was actually lazy and was obviously not in the mood to go out. But since all my family members are celebrating my cousin's birthday in Tampines and no one's home. I decided to just go and visit SB-SE for the last time. So I msg-ed Nurul Syukriyah, asking her if she wanted to come with me. She said yes and I asked to get ready. I cleaned up the kitchen before showering and get ready. I was suppose to meet Nurul around 6.45pm at City Hall mrt but I was late by 15 minutes. I don't know why, but these days I just can't seem to be on time. So yeah, meet up with Nurul at City Hall and she was with Keerah and Fyeqah. Then we quickly made our way to SB-SE. When we got there, there were SB-SU partners. I just smiled and I have to admit I wasn't friendly like always. I wasn't in the mood. I was feeling hungry cause I just had instant noodles for lunch. So the four of us went to Marina Square food court to have dinner. I had my favourite Nasi Ayam Penyet as the 3 of them shared popiah. And guess what, I've bought New Moon! *insert excited face* I have just started reading it yesterday. Hopefully I can finish the book in 1 week. Next month, I'm gonna get Eclipse. After dinner, we walked around Marina Square and do some window shopping. I'm in love, I'm in love with this Nike high cut shoes! It's blue in colour and has tiny, white flowers on it. So cute! Nurul and I had something to settle and I'm glad we talked it out. I don't want that someone to come between us and our friendship. So yeah, glad we talked and cleared everything. I love you, Nurul! After that, we went back to SB-SE. Everyone was busy, clearing and packing things up. Keerah and Fyeqah stayed for awhile before heading home early cause they've got school the next day. Nurul stayed with me for awhile before heading home with Kak Lyn. Since I've got no one to talk to and I wasn't even in the mood, I went online using my laptop. But not for long, cause I have to help carry things from SB-SE to SB-SU. It was almost 1am when everything is finally done. All of us finally get to rest our butts. Hung out outside SB-SU as we talked about how sad we were cause SB-SE has closed down and stuff. Finally, I was in a better mood. I was bored so I buffed my nails using Kak Naz's nail thingy. I don't know what it's called. Haha then after buffing my nails, I bugged Shahril and Wan to let me buff their nails. LOL! They were like, "One nail only eh." Haha so yeah, I only buffed one nail each. I also bugged Faruq who was sitting beside me, staring at me buffing Wan's and Shahril's nails from just now.

Intan: *insert cute face* Can I buff your nails? TEEHEE!
Faruq: -.- Okay lah, okay lah. One nail only okay?
Intan: *insert cute face* Yay! *pulls his finger and start buffing his nail.*
Faruq: *after I buffed his nail* Thank you. *looks at his buffed nail*
Intan: *insert cute face* One more nail can?
Faruq: -.-

Then Shahril's dad came to fetch us and send us home. Arrived home at around 2am, I feeling very tired and lethargic. Showered and changed into my pajamas then read the first chapter of New Moon before hitting the sheets.

Later meeting Chacha bestie. Yay!

Yesterday was an indeed fun-filled day for me. Supposed to meet up with Nurul Syukiryah around 2pm at Bugis mrt station but I was 30 minutes late. Heh sorry eh Nurul. *insert cute face* So yeah, meet up with her near the control station then we proceeded to Bugis Street to find our dresses. There were alot of nice, sweet dresses so it was very hard for me to choose which one to purchase. Finally Nurul and I bought the same dress but different colour from a shop at the first level. We thought of waiting for Farah and the rest to arrive then have lunch together. But they were late and we were already famished. So we went to the KFC in Bugis Junction to have our lunch. After eating, we decided to try out our new dresses at the Ladies. Nurul look very sweet in the dress. I was very insecure and thought I look hideous. But Nurul kept convincing me that I look good in the dress. Of course I look good. *insert kerek face* HAHA OKAY NO. Then Nurul changed back into her white polo tee and skirt. I decided to just wear the new dress instead of changing back into my Fox white tube dress with cardigan. Too excited uh, lol. Then finally Farah, Ziela and Ana arrived. Nurul and I rushed to the KFC near Bugis Street to meet them up. Nurul then parted ways with us to meet Hazwan and friends. I hugged/bid her goodbye. Soon after that, Faiz came. The five of us proceeded to Al Tazzag in Haji Lane for our sheesha session. Sat at our usual spot at the second level in Al Tazzag. We ordered apple mint flavour and iced water for each of us. Ziela borrowed my laptop as Farah and Ana watched Coming Soon on Faiz's handphone. A few hours later, Aqul and Nini joined us. We ordered another sheesha but i'm not sure what was the flavour. So yeah, caught up with each other. Around 8plus, Mum joined us and Mum bought me the pink Cotton pumps I wanted! Plus another one in black. Thanks, Mumsy! *insert happy face* Oh then I bumped into Kak Nadrah, Naqiah's sister. Talked to her for awhile before joining the gang again. Then Mum gave each of them Starbucks vouchers. Then we decided to chill at Starbucks before heading home. All of us proceeded to the Starbucks in Bugis Junction as Mum stayed at Al Tazzag to use the laptop. Arrived at Starbucks, purchased a drink each and chill. Oh and did I tell you that everytime I hear Faiz laugh, I will laugh? Haha his laugh is so funny sia. So everytime he laugh, I would laugh. OH AND FAIZ, M4R ROCKS! Haha Aqul watched the video already. He said I sound like I wanna shit. BABI UH KAU! LOL! Then in less than an hour, Mum came. So I took cab home with her. Thanks for the day, babies!

More photos on Farah's DSLR. Hopefully she'll send all of them to me soon and I'll prolly upload it on Multiply.

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I'm jealous, pissed off and so not in the mood. It's really up to you whether you wanna go out with him or not. After all, there's no need for you to take care of my feelings. Maybe he does like you and you too feel the same way. I can't do anything about it, can I? It also seems like he enjoys talking to you now than talking to me. Well, you two have alot in common and you two click better compare to me and him. Cause right now, he seems to have alot to say to you while my conversations with him are short and boring. Frankly speaking, it does bothers me! And it bothers me alot. But since you're my friend, I shall pretend everything's fine. Although it's nothing but the opposite of fine.

I'm gonna miss you guys so much! But no worries, we'll keep in touch on Facebook. The event yesterday was awesome and I had so much fun. I'm sure everyone did, right? *wide smile* I took tons of photos and it's uploaded on Multiply. Here's the link if you wanna view all 147 photos; http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/6/SB-SE_last_coffee_presentation

So yeah. Yesterday meet up with Kak Nisa and Kak Lyn at Bugis Street first. Kak Lyn's going to Pulau Redang for a vacation next week so she wanted to buy sundresses and flare skirt. So yeah, Kak Nisa and I accompanied her and helped her make her choices. She's so fickle minded, like me. Before that, Kak Lyn treated us lunch at Tong Seng. Thank you for the treat, kak! Then after eating, we proceeded to Bugis Street. Then Nurul Syukriyah joined us from the work. Finally, Kak Lyn made her choices and bought two dresses. I thought of buying one but I don't know which dress to buy. All the dresses are pretty cute. I'm so fickle minded, I know. After purchasing the dresses, we rushed to Bugis Junction to buy a cake for Kak Fai and Kak Mas. After that, we quickly took bus to Suntec. Arrived at SB-SE, the coffee presentation almost started. Luckily, we were on time and soon after that, the coffee presentation started. Nurul and I didn't exactly participate. We were at the back, using my laptop. Introduced Nurul to Fadli who was sitting nearby. Since Fadli's a new staff, he didn't know most of the people there. So he was sitting all alone. Pity him and that's why I try talking to him as much as possible. Then finally, the coffee presentation ended. Time for fun and games! Kak Filza and Abang Rudy came just in time for the games. Caught up with Kak Filza and talked to her about something and my plan to join 4PM. Since she's a member of 4PM, she'll be arranging everything for me. Thank you and I love you til death, Kak Filza! *insert happy face* After that, the fun and games started. SB-SE partners are very sporting and so most of them participated. I was like the photographer of the day. Running around the store, snapping photos for everyone. Haha but it was so much fun! In the middle of a game, Farriqin and Apit came. I was shocked to see Apit cause I thought he wasn't coming and he showed up at the most unexpected time. Haha anyways, glad to see him after quite sometime. He's bald now and he's in NS now. Abang-abang police, you know! LOL! Then when we're playing charades, Qayyum came! I was very excited to see him. Then we took a group photo, hugging each other. A very Awwwh moment, lol. Anyways as I was snapping a group photo of the whole store, I accidentally showed my cleavage off without me realising it. Kak Suzie was like, "Longkang baik!" -.- And Apit was right in front of me, staring at my cleavage. HAHA WTH SIA APIT! Quickly, I covered my cleavage. -.- Everyone laughed at me. Thanks eh, thanks uh. Laugh eh please laugh. -.- Then around 8plus, the event officially ended. One by one of the partners went home. Nurul also wanted to go home, so I sent her at the entrance going to citylink. Hugged/bid her goodbye at the entrance then ran back to the store. Then Kak Nisa asked me to send her to the bus stop near the convention and I did so. After doing so, ran back to the store again. Went online using my laptop as I played sticks with Qayyum, Apit, Kak Pus, Abang Khai, Bad and my brother, Arif. Qayyum and I were making fools of ourselves. We were fencing using the sticks, pretended that the sticks were light sabers from Starwars. Apit kept on poking my fats with the sticks. -.- And I kept on touching his botak head, lol. It was almost 12am, the store had to close. So all of us sat in a circle outside the store. We shared ghost stories. Sitting between Qayyum and Apit, the two boys keep on scaring me especially Qayyum. BABI UH KORANG! Then my brother and I had to go home as the rest of them thonned at SB-SN before proceeded to Fort Canning. I wanted to join them but Mum don't allow me to. Cause they're all boys what. -.- Took cab home and arrived home nearly 1am. I was feeling very, very lethargic. Dead beat, man.

And he fell from love. First he say he won't, then he say he will. Somehow it doesn't matter anymore. I've been hurt countless of times. So yeah, I'm okay and hell yeah I am fine.

Oh anyways, I've topped up my prepaid. So yay, you people can contact me anytime and anywhere now! *insert happy face*

Went over to Starbucks Suntec E-Life to help out the partners/baristas with the preparation for their last coffee presentation/seminar. So sad, I know. *insert sad face* Before doing the preparation, watched Coming Soon on Abang Ali's laptop. CB! The movie was fucking scary and has lots of shocking scenes. After that, followed Kak Fai to Carrefour cause she wanted to cook some pasta for the coffee presentation and needed to buy stuff for the goodies bags. Then we rushed back to the store and start doing the goodies bags. We do the goodies bags as we disturbed Fadli, the only male partner on duty. We called him, "Father." LOL! Kak Mas joined us, teasing and bullying him. Pity him, lol. After Kak Fai and I are done with the goodies bags, we went to the food court to buy some dinner for both of us and Fadli. Kak Mas had to go home as soon as possible. Kak Fai and I bought rice with grilled chicken as that's the only Malay food available. Other stalls were close. Rushed back to the store and have our dinner together as we bitched about matreps, lol. EXTRA OTAK OR WHAT! HAHAHAHA! Then Kak Fai had to paint some boxes. Instead of helping, Fadli and I commented on her paintings. We were like, "Eh font kau cacat sia." and "Sial lah. Budak kindergarten paint lagi lawa siol." HAHAHAHA! Then Fadli asked me something. But as you all know, I'm bimbotic. So I didn't really answer his question.

Fadli: Eh what's the different between poster colour and water colour uh?
Intan: Uhm.. *thinking* Poster colour untuk paint posters. Water colour untuk paint Underwater World?
Fadli: -.-

After Kak Fai's done with the paintings, Kak Fai and I were running around the store. We were pasting Post It notes everywhere name of our crushes. Fadli was pratically following us around and giving us ideas on where we should past the Post it notes. Kak Mas working opening tomorrow. Confirm she'll freak out. Well, that's the whole idea. LOL! Before heading home, we paid the other Starbucks store in Suntec a visit. Saw Faruq after months and he's more hotter now. TEEHEE! And he spoke to me! No biggie actually. Cause he talked to me many times already.

Faruq: *smiles* Eh you! Long time no see.
Intan: *MENTEL SMILE* Eh hey. Hi Faruq! What's up?
Fadli: *loud voice which spoils the moment* EH FARUQ! Kau nak tahu tak... *keep on ranting in a loud voice*
Intan: -.-

Then Faruq gave me the cutest smile ever! Omg I think I almost fainted. HAHA OKAY NO. I just listened to Faruq and Fadli talking about some random stuff. Not long after that, Fadli went home first cause he needs to catch the last train. Kak Fai's boyfriend sent her home and I took cab home. I'm feeling very, very lethargic now. Dead beat, man.

Anyways, everyone is invited for the coffee presentation tomorrow. Please don't hesitate to come! :D

Happy 18th Birthday, Zee Luella! Another friend of mine is now legal age. Hmph, I am so jealous! But that's okay, in 2 years time it'll be my turn. I so can't wait! Anyways hope you'll have the most memorable and bestest birthday ever. Last long with your dearest boyfriend. You two are the sweetest thing! Meet up soon, darling. Oh and enjoy this special day of yours while it lasts.

My day was mundane. Nothing much happened. I slept at 8am yesterday and woke up around 3plus in the afternoon. I spent the whole day online and clearing the contents of my fridge. Eating whatever is edible in there. Haha that explains why I'm getting fatter and fatter each day which don't really bother me anymore. I have other better things to worry about. Anyways it's 12.12am and it's too early for me to go to bed. But I better sleep before 3am cause other than my body, my eyebags are also getting fatter. Tsk. -.- Currently msg-ing Syaffy who is going jogging at this hour but I highly doubt so. I so know he'll end up thonning with his friends. -.-

My favourite Starbucks store on earth which is Starbucks Suntec E-Life is closing down! AAAHHH NO! *runs away and screams* And they'll be having their last coffee seminar/presentation this Friday. Who wants to go with me? Okay nobody, I know. My brother is going there with a date. Can't you believe it? WITH A DATE! And I'm dateless. A loser like him has a date! I'm a less loseric person has no date. I am so sad and depressed now. See how tak laku I am. Gaaaah, I am so gonna end up as a spinster. Okay I'm overreacting a little.

Currently chatting with Ruqq who is practicing rapping and whose ex is a pain on his ass, like I am on (insert name here)'s. Well he deserve it after all the pain he caused me! Guys are heartless creatures. I'm done with liars and I'm obviously sick of bullshit. Right now, I'm trying not to get too attached to anyone that easily. People come and go too frequently.

Time check: 7.14AM

And I haven't slept since last night! Hogged on the phone with (insert name here) til 3plus in the morning. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing, but the conversation went well. Although I was suffering from severe period cramps which almost killed me(okay this part extra) and caused me to PMS alot, I managed to control my emotions and not get agitated so easily like I always do when I'm having my menses. I can get very, very touchy too. Anyways I had to strain myself from being oversensitive although at times during the conversation, I felt like cursing him. Haha but I didn't. I would just whine about certain things and at one point, I felt like crying without any reason. But I didn't do so cause I promised him and Syaffy, I would learn to control my emotions. And that's what I simply did last night. Yay me! I think that last night was the first time I didn't throw any tantrums while talking to (insert name here). See, I can be a good girl. LOL! And I deserve Junior for that. Don't ask me what/who is Junior, lol. It's just between me and him. Heh heh.. *kening naik-naik* Oh and I miss (insert name here)'s smell. Don't ask me what perfume he uses, cause he doesn't use any. I don't know why but I have this fetish of smelling the man I love although he's not wearing any perfume or cologne. I would then get addicted to the smell he has and would smell him each time we cuddle and hug. Now you all know I'm weird, lol.

I'm halfway to victory. My ingenious plan is working perfectly. It's indeed A for Awesome, lol. But I shall not speak too soon. You never know what could come in your way. Pardon me for being such a bitch but being screwed isn't fun. I may not even be sixteen yet, but you so know I'm more than that. So watch your back, lady.

You said you're always here. But how come I don't feel your presence? You told me that's because I didn't believe you are. Then why don't you make me believe? I feel so neglected by you. Or maybe I feel this way due to the unpredictable mood swings I've been having. I've also been feeling nothing but the opposite of happy. I can change for you, for the better. But the question's now will you actually be there to witness it all? And we shall do the Do and Don't regulations soon. See how much I wanna do this for you and it's hard, almost impossible for me to explain why. I miss you, Syaffy.

Then he said, "You're no ordinary person in my life."
And you never failed to plaster a smile on my face each day. Even when I'm feeling far from happy.

My brother just lost his mp3 player a few days ago and yesterday he lost his handphone. -.- See Mumsy, these are the reasons why you should not buy him any electronic devices and start buying me more. Heh heh! Anyways eversince his mp3 player is gone, he has officially become the human iPod. He sing all sorts of song. From WeTheKings's Check Yes Juliet to Taylor Swift's Teardrops On My Guitar and also from Hannah Montana's The Best Of Both Worlds to Spongebob Squarepants's theme song. -.- All of the singing is gonna damage my hearing soon, I swear. He said that he's only gonna stop singing when his mp3 player is found or when Mumsy buys him a new one. Til then, I'm gonna have to hear him sing every single night. AAAHHHH NO! *runs away and screams* More reasons for me to migrate to Pulau Ubin. Gonna start building my sampan now.

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This is for you, Farah babygirl. Please don't be upset and depressed over what happened. The world is too cruel sometimes. Nothing last forever and yes, good things will always come to an end. But look at the bright side babygirl, you'll always have me, Ziela babygirl and the rest. You know all of us love you so much! Although I'm unhappy with my own life, but seeing you unhappy makes me feel worser. I feel your pain, sister.

Sometimes we have to accept that things don't really go the way we want to and people we want to be with are not meant for us. It may be hard to accept the fact, but the end of day that's the fact we have to face and live with. Although it hurts, but I know you're way stronger than me. Sometimes you need to forget what you want and remember what you deserve. And of course, you deserve someone way better than Amad. I can assure that, babygirl. A wonderful friend and girl like you deserve the best of the best. I love you, forever and always.

Amad's not cute anymore cause he hurt my babygirl's feelings. Up yours eh Amad. *insert cb face* Guys are jerks but we girls sure can't live without them, can we?

Relationships are like cotton candy: all pretty, sparkly, sugary and tempting. But the minute you take a bite, what happens? They dissolve and leave you with tooth decay.

I think I'm in a state of being completely carried away by unreasoning passion or love. It's amazing how much I'm willing to change for the better, just for that someone. Seeing him happy witnessing the changes makes feel a thousand times more happier than him. Yes, my happiness simply lies in his.

Anyways yesterday meet up with Nurul Syukiryah nearby Hougang Interchange around 5pm. She was hungry, so I accompanied her to have late lunch at McDonalds in Hougang Mall. After eating, we walked around Hougang Mall. We were at the fourth level when I realised Hougang Mall has a rooftop garden! I've lived in Hougang for a year plus now, but yesterday I just got to know Hougang Mall has a rooftop garden. Laugh eh please laugh. -.- So yeah, Nurul and I hung out there and camwhored. We also caught the sunset from the rooftop garden. Around 7plus, we decided to head home. Went to the Ladies first before Nurul walked me home since she wanted to take 87 from the bus stop in front of my block again. So I stayed at the bus stop and accompanied her. We were acting like lesbians and laughing too hard til everyone looked at us. Then 87 arrived, I blew Nurul a kiss before she board the bus. And everyone stared at us again, lol. Anyways I'll upload the photos very, very soon. Currently my digital camera's with my lil sister. She has some sports event at school.

Look at my cheeks. They're getting fatter and fatter. Ugh, need to stop eating. ): And guess what, I thought condoms come is sizes. HAHA WTH I KNOW. Then I realised condoms are stretchable what, lol. And I visualised myself asking the 7-11 cashier, "Excuse me. This condom got size M, L or XL or not? Cause my boyfriend's one big uh." HAHAHAHAHA!



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