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Sunday, May 31, 2009
175: Cousin's birthday party!


Okay I know I look retarded and yes, I am very short. -.-

Anyways my cousin's birthday party was chaotic as expected with the presence of my aunts, cousins, little nieces and nephews. There were quite variety of food and I ate alot. The laksa and sup tulang prepared by one of my aunts tasted so good! The birthday cake is pink in colour and it is very cute plus it tasted quite nice too. As usual for more photos; http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/22/cousins_bday_party

I am super sexcited for Farah's birthday party later! It's been months since we thonned together and I'm pretty sure we're gonna have heaps of fun later.

I want nobody nobody but chewxzxz! Hahahaha I am hooked to this song, thanks to that someone. And Feeney thinks we're cute together. Ehem ehem! Hahahaha and Ameera thinks he's very cute. Okay sudah people, don't compliment him too much. Later he'll get lost at Kembangan and couldn't stop smiling in front of this computer screen like some retarded ass lol.

Currently, I have no idea where he is because his prepaid is low which means he is uncontactable. But I am pretty sure he's outside with his boys again which is why he haven't call me til now. -.- I hope he is not thonning because I will be very pissed if he does. I don't mind him thonning but at least inform me first. I don't wanna wait for this phone call til late when he's outside, having fun and thonning with his boys and of course, forgets all about me. And yeah, I informed him that I am thonning later like a few days ago. Plus I do not want us to have the same conversation we had last night about informing each other our where-beings now and then. Eventhough we're not together yet, but it's better if we start now right?

/EDITED!

Yay, he just called! Gonna hog on the phone with him til wee hours now. *smile from ear to ear*



Saturday, May 30, 2009
174: Shopping Trip w Mum & siblings

The black and pink Nike high cut kicks I'm gonna get soon!

Shopping trip with Mum and siblings was awesome! Meet up with Nurul for awhile at City Hall mrt station to take back my digital camera from her. Then rushed to Raffles City to meet Mum and siblings. We went to buy Farah's birthday gift first from ____ before proceeding to Topman as Bro wanted to get a new shirt. So yeah, bought the shirt afterwhich we walked to Peninsula. Mum bought 2 pair of black jeans and I just bought one pair of faded jeans. I didn't know why but I felt like wearing jeans, something I hadn't wear for ages. Then went to the 2nd level to get band t-shirts. Bro bought A7X and Fall Out Boy band tee as I bought Paramore band tee. From City Hall, we took bus down to Town. We went to Tangs first to buy my cousin's birthday gift which is Hannah Montana file. Oh and I bought Hannah Montana notebooks! Super cute, I tell you heheh! From Tangs, we walked to Far East Plaza. We were all famished so we decided to dine at Sakura Thai restaurant. After the overfilling meal, we walked around Far East Plaza. Mum bought a pair of new heels and I wanted one too but I figured that I don't really need it. So bought 2 new dresses from Max & More. Then went to the basement and I bought a vintage belt. And of course, we all had Fried Mars Balls which tasted like heaven before heading home.

On a brighter note, Mum promised that we're gonna dine at Carousel end of June! Yay, super duper excited mannn.

Tomorrow attending cousin's birthday party in Tampines. On Sunday, finally it's Farah's birthday party! *smile from ear to ear* I am very, very anticipated. I hope Farah is gonna love the gift Mum and I bought for her.

It's midnight now and I swear I miss that someone very badly. Hurry come back and call me cause I miss being kiss by you through the phone and can't wait to have our very first real kiss together hehehehe! I love talking cute with you cause you'll entertain me no matter what although I can get very annoying at times lol. It's cute when you charge me 5 cents each time I tease you and I'll charge you 5 cents each time you say the J word hahahaha you know I know eh baby. *kenings naik-naik* It's also a little weird that we're now calling each other baby lol.

/EDITED!


Hi. I am very bored right now. It's 1.31am in the morning but that someone is still outside, having fun with his boys. -.- Now who's gonna talk to me on the phone? *insert sad face* Currently I am bloghopping and looking for a new blogskin while waiting for this handsome boy to come home. Don't he dare thon if not I am gonna sulk for 10 days 10 nights 10 hours 10 minutes and 10 seconds hahahaha. Since I am super bored right now, I am gonna do the survey Faizal Superpok tagged me to do.

1. Besides your lips, where is your favourite spot to get kiss?
- Forehead and nose!

2. How do you feel when you wake up this morning?
- Strangely, I feel elated.

3. Who was the last person you took photo with?
- My brother.

4. Would you consider yourself to be spoiled?
- Sometimes.

5. Would you ever donate blood?
- Maybe.

6. Have you ever had a bestfriend who was the opposite sex?
- LOVE LOVE LOVE HAHAHAHA!

7. Do you want someone dead?
- FUCK YEAH AND I'M SURE HE KNOWS WHO HE IS!

8. What does your last message says?
- "I kat luar uh bby." -.-

9. What are you thinking right now?
- When is this handsome boy gonna come back home.

10. Do you wish someone to be with you right now?
- Fuck yeah, but sadly he's busy having fun with his boys. -.-

11. What is the time you go to bed last night?
- Almost 2am.

12. Where did you buy the t shirt you're wearing right now?
- I am actually wearing my nightie.

13. Is someone on your mind?
- Yes. *insert mentel smile*

14. Who was the last person who texted you?
- LOVE LOVE LOVE HAHAHAHA!

Tag 10 Random people to do this survey
1. Nurul Syukriyah
2. Shairulazryan
3. Farah
4. Ziela
5. Nini
6. Chacha
7. Danny
8. Zee Luella
9. Dini
10. Keerah

16. Who is 2 having relationship with?
- He's currently single. You can have him lol.

17. Is 3 female or male?
- Both also can hahahaha! No lah, she's female. -.-

18. If 7 & 10 get together, would it be a good thing?
- I guess so? -.-

19. What is 1 studying about?
- She's no longer schooling but working.

20. When was the last time you had a chat with them?
- MSN, just now.

21. Is 4 single?
- No, she's blissfully attached to Faiz the fart machine hahahaha!

22. Say something about 3!
- She's cute but I am much more cuter lol.

23. what do you think about 3 & 5 being together?
- They are straight, mind you.

24. Describe 9!
- I thought she was kerek but actually she's quite friendly. ^^

25. What will you do if 6 & 7 fight?
- They don't even know each other, how to fight? -.-

26. Do you like 8?
- Duh if not why would I tag her to do this stupid survey? -.-



Friday, May 29, 2009
173: I'm enjoying myself - How strange!

His pain set off little stabs of my own

Despite feeling very shitty and absolutely hideous yesterday, I still followed Mum to Commonwealth/Raffles Place/Orchard/Queensway. I wasn't in my very best mood. In fact, I was in my worst mood ever and faked a smile each time Mum looks at me. But Mum managed to cheer me up in the end and tomorrow we'll be going shopping, yay! Anyways, I am totally in love with this pink Salvatore Ferragamo heels which costs $495. But I know Mum will never buy it for me since it costs a bomb. Still, a girl can dream right? Eventhough Mum will never buy me the heels, she's gonna get me black & pink Nike high cut kicks! Plus I am gonna get my hair extensions soon. My current hair is like pepek already. I can't wait to have long and wavy hair! Woohoo, thanks Mum and you know I love you forever and ever.

On an even brighter note, my favourite boy is talking to me again with no more cold and bitterness in his voice. Who else if not -- Muhd Faris Bin (insert name here) aka Abang Handsome hahahaha! I told him what happened from A-Z. Being the Faris I know, I swear he is perangai nak mampzxz. But no worries, no matter how perangai you are, I still love you muchy muchy much Mr Bestfriend. Thank you for accepting me, flaws and all.

Faris: So does this mean I get to be your Edward Cullen?
Intan: Uhm no.
Faris: But I am still your Jacob Black right?
Intan: Uhm no, not really.
Faris: Then?
Intan: You're not my Edward or Jacob. But you're better than the two of them. You're just Faris, my Faris.
Faris: Alah why? I baru nak tukar nama. *laughs irritatingly*
Intan: Perangai. -.-

I so cannot wait for the 4th of June! Not only because it's the day Hannah Montana the movie premiers but I am gonna watch it with my favourite boy slash Mr Bestfriend plus my annoying little sister. -.- Yes, Mum forced me to bring her along cause she's also a fan of Hannah Montana. Fortunately, Faris don't mind at all if my little sister tags along. He is very excited to meet her cause according to him, she is very cute. Sudah, cute habis! Wait til she throws tantrums unreasonably. Later you see, cute or not eh Faris.

Anyways, I've finish reading Breaking Dawn is less than a week. Yay me!

/EDITED!


In a very strange kind of way, I'm enjoying myself without that sardonic bastard. It's not because the pain has weakened over time, rather that I've grown strong enough to bear it. I think it is mostly because of Faris. We seem to be connected in an odd way and I'm so eager to see him again.

Oh and I'm gonna start posting at my private blog too very, very soon. So do check it out for updates if you have the access to it.



Thursday, May 28, 2009
172: The End

When you can't be with the one you love, will you stay with the one who loves you?

Every word he said was like a knife, tearing my heart apart. I couldn't stand the pain and I didn't know what to do. I couldn't even think clearly. I walked away without thinking. I could not do anything else. I had to keep moving. I walked and walked with no sense of direction. My vision was blurred with tears. My whole body went numb. My arms were wrapped around myself, trying to keep myself together which was almost impossible. I tried to breathe normally. I needed to focus, to find a way out of the nightmare.

I'm feeling absolutely hideous this morning. I didn't sleep well last night and my head aches. I almost spent the whole night deleting everything that has gotta do with him from my laptop and each time I see his name, it sent a wave of torture through me. Desperate to escape the pain, I quickly deleted everything.

My life isn't like the Twilight saga. Not even close. The Edward Cullen of my life is apparently a heartless and sardonic bastard while the Jacob Black is still giving me the cold shoulder which I totally deserve for not believing him.

To you whose name I can't even mention without intense hatred; your apology means nothing to me and forgiving you will be impossible. I promise you that last night will be the last time you see me as I do not ever wanna see your face again. I do not want to have anything to do with you. You can go on with your life without any inference from me.

To Muhd Faris; all I know is that you're not here to say what you always use to say. You were right about everything; he has never been the one for me and he has never chosen me. You're probably now unhappy due to me. I apologise and I am feeling very guilty right now for not thinking of you more. But believe it or not, in so many real ways, I did love you. Right now, maybe I can choose to have you belong to me. Unfortunately, I am still absolutely undecided about that.



Wednesday, May 27, 2009
171: Love. Life. Meaning. Over.

Happy 16th Birthday, Farah babygirl!

Happy 17th Birthday, Nini babygirl!

Everyone knows that I obviously love the both of you and you both love me too lol. Nini, I hope you and Aqul last long then get married and make babies alot alot k. Then don't forget to invite me to your wedding cause I wanna makan free hahahaha. Farah, hurry and find a boyfriend then get married and make babies. Or better, you both get married on the same day since your birthday also on the same day lol. May all your dreams come true and may you two also succeed in life! Okay finish reading already? Don't kembang and stop smiling in front of the computer hahahaha. I LOVE YOU TWO TIL DEATH!

This Sunday is Farah's birthday party at East Coast Park. Yay, can makan free! Hahahaha anyways I'll be thonning there with the girls. Abang Handsome was being shameless and invited himself to the party. -.- But I don't know if he's gonna attend it or not since we had a small arguement just now. Ugh, shall elaborate more on this later. -.-

I spent my day with the girls yesterday, just slacking under the void. Meet up with Ziela babygirl outside Hougang Mall before she accompanied me to run some errands. Then both of us were famished and had our brunch at KFC. Afterwhich, we walked around Hougang Mall and decide what to get for Farah. Around 2pm, we made our move to meet Farah and Nini at blk 249. We were at the interchange, waiting for 51 when a retarded guy tried to snatch Ziela's bag. But he failed and walked off. -.- Then Ziela pointed her middle finger and kept on cursing the guy. Finally 51 came and we boarded the bus to blk 249. Hung out under the void deck before Nini went off to meet Aqul. As usual, Ziela and Farah made me laugh til my stomach hurts. I was being random and msg-ed Abang Handsome and Nurul, telling them what are my current cravings lol. Not long after, Ana came and we continue slacking before parting ways and head home around 5pm.


"Loving you madly will be forever." I've been re-reading the words I already memorized. Anyways the keyword is Forever. I checked the dictionary and the meaning/definition is - For everlasting time, eternally. But I guess that someone's meaning/definition of Forever is just a week. Oh and I did lose the letter forever but I didn't lose the contents of the letter. I was bored yesterday evening and so I went through the entries of my private blog. Then I realised I actually typed and published the contents of the letter there which I totally forgot I did. -.-

"He has never been the one for you, he has never chosen you. But you continue to destroy your life for him. Why can't you just walk away? Oh right, because you're an idiot." If loving him makes me an idiot, then I am very idiotic. I could not say that I would not care if you're not there. I can feel that you're getting bored and sick of me, talking and complaining about him like all the time. I know that every single time we meet or talk, I'll always mention his name at least once or twice.

I can apologise a million times to you but I know you'll still feel hurt. But nevertheless, I did apologise and I mean it. I don't know til when you're gonna give me the cold shoulder. But I'm use it already, I'm use to people giving me this kind of shit uh. If you're really leaving, I have to say that I'm gonna miss your presence. But if your life is happier without me, then go k. I also don't want to hurt you further and I know I cannot make you happy. Again, I am very sorry Faris.

/EDITED!


I am very shagged right now. Last night, I slept at 3am again. It's somehow has been a routine for me to talk to Dyno the pakcik before I sleep or to be exact, before I fall asleep on the phone lol.

Later will be meeting Nurul at Tampines Library, out of all places in Singapore. Then afterwhich, we might be meeting that someone. Gahhhh, I need to talk to him very badly about something. I actually wrote everything down already on a piece of paper, somehow like a letter to express my feelings. But I think I should just tell him face-t0-face. I feel so.... nervous. So awkward. I've never really express my feelings for someone face-to-face. But there's a first time for everything right? :S

Where's my Jacob Black? :(



Tuesday, May 26, 2009
170: Hoping for the impossible



I was bored; so I came up with another short essay. I don't know if I can call it an essay since it's so short.

She suddenly feel so out of place. She feel totally out of sorts. For the moment, it may even feel like that she is never going to emerge from her sadness. She feel like that life is over and there's no meaning left for her. He means so much to her and she wish she could tell him now. But unfortunately, she would never be able to find the words without breaking down. When she tries to talk, she just don't know what to say because he doesn't feel the same.

She misses him but she can't decide whether she should see him or not. She want to see him because she miss him very, very much. But at the same time, she do not want to see him. The reason is because everytime she does, the fact that he don't see her the way that she sees him hurts her even more than usual.


But it's never too late. She still have chances in my life. She'll get up once again. She'll laugh once again. She'll live again and perhaps, she'll love again.


The essay above is again dedicated to that someone who thinks I like Faris or something. -.- I swear I feel like calling him up and shout, "I love you, bodoh!" to his ear or grab him then kiss his lips like I never did before lol. If only I had the courage to do all that which of course, I do not have and I think will never have. The little green monster named Jealousy paid me a visit yesterday. I shall not elaborate on this matter more. But what I know is that someone got it all wrong. Faris is a PART of my life but he IS my life. See, huge difference right? As much as I can't force him to love me again, it's as much as I can't force myself to stop loving him.

Anyways Faris force me to call him Abang Handsome for the rest of my life from today onwards. Shameless ass! -.- And bite my cheeks off if you dare uh uh uh lol. Anyways I do not know when I am gonna meet you again. My prepaid and ez-link card running low seh. Sad life or what. :(

On a brighter note, I'm gonna get my allowance soon since Mum will be getting her pay very, very soon. I have an overpowering urge to go shopping and finally, I can do it in a few days time, yay! Maybe I'll be going shopping with Abang Handsome cause he also wanna get new shirts.

hannah montana the movie Pictures, Images and Photos

Oh oh and and Hannah Montana the movie is premiering on 4 June! *jumps around* Who wanna watch it with me? If no one wants to, I'm gonna drag Abang Handsome to watch it with me. *evil grins* Or perhaps my babygirls. But I highly doubt so cause they're not fans of Hannah Montana. Or maybe I shall try asking that someone if he wanna watch it with me which I also highly doubt he would want to. :(

Did you ever regret holding my hand, my Edward Cullen?

/EDITED!

I am feeling very lethargic right now. I hogged on the phone with Dyno the pakcik til almost 3am last night. I'm lack of sleep these few days cause my nights are spent either talking to Dyno on the phone or I'll be on the laptop, talking crap with Abang Handsome online. I swear this handsome boy is super irritating! Now I wonder, how could someone so cute be so annoying? Hahahaha whatever it is, you're handsome k lol. Okay, stop smiling in front of your computer. I am just carrying your balls hahahaha. :P AND BABY, I LOVE YOU TOO K! HAHAHAHA MAMPUS! PERANGAI SIAK. -.-

Anyways the reason why I'm awake right now at 9.45am, it's because I need to run some errands then meet Ziela babygirl up at Hougang Mall. If not, I'll be sleeping like a pig til afternoon.

I dreamt that I drowned yesterday. -.- Suprisingly, today I am in a good mood. Okayokay, gotta bathe and get ready. Oh anyways my prepaid's low already. :(


My Jacob Black, I cannot tell you something that ain't real.



Monday, May 25, 2009
169: Mixed Feelings

It's 1.02am and I'm chatting with Dyno the pakcik lol. Talked on the phone with him for awhile just now and later will be hogging on the phone with him again til wee hours. Anyways Azwan said I look like that guy from Saw in the picture on the left, really uh? First time seh someone said I look like a guy. What only this Azwan! -.- Dyno thinks I look cute. Ehem, I know right? Hahahaha see, now I am lost at Kembangan already lol.

I am still thinking whether I should attend Corefest this Saturday. The ticket costs $10 each and currently I am broke. I actually feel like going on the Sunday but Farah's birthday party is held on the same day. I would not and could not miss it for the world. Oh and I still haven't decide on what to get her. Wait, I don't even have the money yet to get her anything. Haiya, sad or what. -.- I know she is still pissed off with what happened last Saturday. I've apologised and felt really bad about it but what to do if she still won't talk to me. :(

I finally got to see that someone yesterday. But I did not know what to feel. Should I feel elated or upset? Or perhaps both? I should feel elated that I finally got to see him after almost a month. But at the same time, I feel extremely upset that things aren't the same and very different now. Maybe I should not see him again. I don't feel like I am myself when I'm near him now cause I need to pretend and fake a smile, laugh as if I am happy. Great, now he and everyone of you know I am feeling nothing but the opposite of happy.

Maybe I should drop my bloody ego and tell him what I am really feeling. Or maybe I should just beg. Hahah okay no, I shall not beg. I've made enough fool out of myself by typing this post and begging would make me a bigger joke than I am already now.

I'm going to Sentosa again this June with Norimah, Keerah and maybe Nurul? Yay, the June holidays are just around the corner! I still remember how I spent my weekends during the June holidays last year. I spent almost every Saturday, drunk with the Arh Siol Familia at Payung. Oh my god, it's been ages since I talk to them. Wonder how are all of them doing. I am so random, I know. I love being stupid and drunk. Okay maybe not so. I didn't like it when I was drunk and I made out with a friend of a friend. It was so embarrassing! And it is more embarrassing now that I am actually telling the whole wide world by publishing it on my blog. Hahah but who cares, it's like so last year. But I don't ever wanna bump into that guy, whatever his name is. I forgot already lol. -.- Oh my god, I am so immoral. Must stop drinking already. Hahah okayokay I know I've said this for a million times already. That someone is right; I talk only but no action. Gahhhh, must prove him wrong.

I am still having menstrual cramps. Ahhhh, cramps go away please. =/ Okay right now, forcing Dyno the pakcik to take his shower. Wanna shower also lazy. Sheesh, I feel like poking him using the sharpest pencil lol. Or I'll bite his cheeks off! He wanna bite my cheeks right, I bite his first lol. Okay, I shall play Word Challenge now then call the pakcik up and talk to him til I am sleepy which is not so soon, I bet.

Later meeting Keerah to take back my digital camera. I miss Puffpuff very much! Yes, my digital camera has a name and the name is Puffpuff. Cute right, I know! Hahahaha okayokay, update more later.

/EDITED!

Baik. I'm suppose to wake Dyno the pakcik for school at 8.30am and I even set my alarm clock. But look at the time now, it's bloody 11.01am! =/ I guess I was so soundly asleep that I didn't hear the alarm clock rang. -.-

I am not gonna meet Keerah, I guess. Too lazy and moodless to go out.



Sunday, May 24, 2009
168: Curse the stupid Singtel guy

My Saturday was mundane. I had to cancel all my plans and stayed at home, wait for the stupid Singtel guy to come. And he came late! I was in an extremely bad mood and he make things worse by coming late. So I showed him my *insert cb face* when he came and showed him where to put the modem and stuff. In the evening, I followed my family to a kenduri in Sengkang.

Hogged on the phone with Dyno til late again last night. Since I didn't get enough sleep the night before, I was like half asleep when I was talking to him. Heheh pardon me eh Dyno.

Today is gonna be another mundane day, I guess. I will either rot at home again or go out with the family. Right now I am famished and bored. I'm craving for Ben & Jerry's ice cream or fried mars ball with chocolate ice cream. Yumzxzxz!

Yay, tomorrow is already Monday. I'm really exciteeeeeeed! It's next week already which means I might be seeing that someone again after almost a month. But then again, I'm wondering whether he is excited as I am. Maybe he is? You never know right. Well, I shouldn't fill myself with false hopes.

Frankly speaking, I am confused. A few days ago, I told Faris that friendship is enough and I'm still not over that someone. I don't know whether Faris was hurt or not by what I said but since then, we don't really talk to each other anymore. It's sad cause he was there for me all the time when I was extremely depressed over the break up and conflicts I had with Nurul. He was also the one who burnt the letter using a lighter as he thought it would make me forget all about that someone. But he was wrong, extremely wrong. Here I am, still thinking if I should move on or not. I miss msg-ing Faris whatever is on my mind, all the random stuff. I do not have to filter what I wanna say. Maybe it's because Faris is not sensitive at all. Talking to him was easy, being with him would be much more easier. But I rather take the challenge and be with that someone again. I know it's stupid, I could have someone who is easy to be with but instead I chose to be with someone who is challenging to be with. But I have a feeling that someone has already moved on. :( Maybe I should too, right? But I'm afraid not with Faris.

A few minutes ago, I didn't know what to blog about. And now look, I just typed whatever I feel. Oh oh, I've finished reading Eclipse! Actually I finished reading the book around 2 weeks ago but I forgot to blog about it til today lol. My aunt bought me Breaking Dawn already and I'm gonna start reading soon.

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/EDITED!

Might be going to SGH to visit Nurul's daddy. He's hospitalised due to a road accident. That someone might be there and I was fucking excited at first. I was smiling from ear to ear then I don't know why, I felt upset out of the sudden. Actually I know the reason, but I won't say it. Just keep inside of me. Stupid green little monster! :(

Anyways what should I wear? A dress? Shorts and top? I feel nervous. Like it's my first time meeting him. There's like butterflies in my stomach right now. Ahhhhh, gotta find a perfect outfit to wear. I miss Nurul's 2 months old baby brother, Matin. Gonna shower this little angel with lots of kisses! And and, capture lots of photos with this little handsome guy.

/EDITED!

I am going to wear my yellow floral dress which makes me look like the Botanical Garden.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHH, where's my cardigan?



Saturday, May 23, 2009
167: Smiling from ear to ear

I WANT THIS, I WANT THIS! ^^

Nothing much happened yesterday. Went to meet Nurul at the airport to pass her my digital camera. Oh Norimah was there and she wasn't feeling well. Anyways I was in depression mode. I actually cried my eyeballs out in public. -.- Thanks Norimah for the huge Barney hug. I love you k babe! Then Nurul and I sent Norimah home by cab since she wasn't feeling well. From Norimah's home in Tampines, I followed Nurul back to her crib in Bedok. Slacked there for awhile before heading home. And this crazy woman told Faifai that I wanted to meet him. -.- Great, how he thinks I am some desperate girl. But on the brighter note, I might be meeting him next week. Heheh yay, next week I'll be the most happiest bitch on earth if he meets me. *smile from ear to ear* I miss you like fuckady fuckady fuck fuck fuck. Hahahaha k I shall not make a fool of myself any longer.

Last night as usual, conferenced with Dyno, Nurul and Ryan aka Ajieeeyaaan aka Acai. Hahahaha stop it seh the name lol. As usual, Ryan was being an irritant. I feel like knocking his head with a recorder seh seh seh, seriously lol. Then Dyno hung up first cause he wanted to eat. Yes, he wanted to eat at almost 3am in the morning. Hahah anyways, I thought I wanted to sleep. Then Dyno called me and we hogged on the phone til 5plus in the morning. I am gonna bite your cheeks off first k lol. Oh oh, we're gonna get married and make 10 babies hahahaha! Okay no, 10 babies eh don't want uh. I want 2 only k lol.

Surprisingly, I am in a extremely good mood. I am smiling from ear to ear just now because of a few reasons. Heh heh.. *smile from ear to ear* Later might be going to 4PM Night Race with brother, Nurul and her siblings. The event will be from 5.30pm til the next morning. Wahhhh... confirm I'll be fucking lethargic seh seh seh lol. But that's okay, I'm sure we're all gonna have so much fun. Dyno and Faris must be so proud that I decided to join the Night Race instead of thonning and drinking lol. If meet me, must treat me k you two. Okay best, okay go!

A thousand apologies to my babygirls cause I ditched you all for this event. Promise we'll thon together next Saturday on Farah's birthday party k. I love you all til death, I swear.

/EDITED!

Fuckady fuckady fuck fuck fuck. I can't attend the 4PM Night Race. :( I need to stay at home cause Mum applied for Mio TV or something. The Mio TV person will only be here at 6pm and I have to be at Bedok Reservoir by 6.30pm. Cb seh seh seh. :(

You obviously refer to me in your blog entry. Well, I am not mad or anything cause I know I'm in the wrong. I feel really bad okay. Anyways now I can't attend the Night Race or even meeting you guys. Gonna rot at home the whole fucking day. :(

Forgiveness is divine, people. I would forgive you too if you did the same thing to me. You know that I love you and I treat everyone the same. I'm sorry if I haven't been sucha good friend to you girls. I'm just a human being. I make mistakes and well, everybody does right? I'm sorry. Maybe I am not good enough to be one of you girls. :(



Thursday, May 21, 2009
166: Don't Forget

Happy 18th Birthday, Dyno!

I didn't wanna say I'm sorry
For breaking us apart
I didn't wanna say it was my fault
Even though I know it was

I didn't sleep well at all last night. I kept tossing and turning. Now my body is aching and to make things worser, I am suffering from severe menstrual cramps. I thought I wanna rot at home in self-pity/depressed/PMS mode. But later gotta meet Nurul at the airport. She wanna borrow my digital camera for some event.

Anyways I heard you're not feeling well. I hope you get well soon.


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Twilight Pictures, Images and Photos

Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten about us
Don't forget about us

I was bored. The short essay is for someone to know that despite everything that happened and all the miles between us right now, I still think about the way it was in the beginning.

She often catch herself constantly wondering how he is, sitting alone with her mind set so far, reminiscing about his smile, voice and touch. Goodbyes always hurt whether it's the right thing to do or not. Even if she has moved on, that doesn't mean she won't be here if he changes his mind. She is somehow holding on to something that used to be there, hoping it will come back but knowing it won't. A lot of people walk in and out of her life but he was one of the only ones she really wanted to stick around.

She tries to talk to him, but she don't know what to say. She's afraid he don't want her to say anything. So she don't but inside of her, there are words waiting to come out and tell him how she feels and how she misses him. How she loves him despite her broken heart and how she needs him in her life. Especially how much she wants him but those words may stay forever in her heart. Sometimes she wonder of there are words locked inside him too, but she'll never know.

Maybe he's doing the same thing as her. Maybe he wants to call her so bad, but just won't because she haven't called him. Then again, maybe she shouldn't fill herself with false hope that he might just be missing her like she's missing him.

She tried to convince herself that she didn't want him anymore. But she just can't let go. She doesn't want to see him move on but she's not doing much about it either. She felt so good when she was with him, he made her feel like the world; to hear she was his favourite. He wasn't ashmed and would hold her hand anywhere. Everytime they kissed it felt like she was dreaming. Love felt like heaven when she was with him. Now that he's gone, she's hurting like hell. She misses him so much and wishes he's here by her side. But she made the wrong choice and it's too late. Too many mistakes has been made and she lost him.

The goodbye made her think. It made her realize what she had and what she has lost and what she has taken for granted.

It's always the same in every relationship, there is always one person crying and wishing to get back together. While the other doesn't even remember the things they've been through. I hate that I have to be the one who remembers every single detail when he can't seem to remember me at all. Someone should totally sue Disney for planting ideas in little kids' heads that every girl has a prince and everything ends up happily ever after which is pure bullshit.

It could've been our first month.



Wednesday, May 20, 2009
165: Sentosa/DVR jamming session


For more photos as usual;http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/21/DVR_jamming_session

Had an awesome day with Dee and DVR yesterday. Meet up with Dee around 11am then we took the monorail to Sentosa. The weather was suprising hot. It was really, really hot that Dee and I didn't want to stay at the island too long. Around 2plus, we were already on our way back to the mainland. Had lunch at Banquet, Vivo City then took bus to Bugis. We went to Bras Basah Complex to get the DVR logo printer into stickers. Then we proceeded to Bugis mrt to meet the band. Around 6pm, everyone came and we proceeded to Beats Merchant for 2 hours of jamming session. Had dinner at a mamak shop nearby. And after dinner, DVR had a short band debrief. Then we decided to call it a day. I really had fun with them yesterday and hope to hang out again soon eh. ^^

I am feeling very lethargic. Shall go and get some sleep now.

/EDITED!

Instead of hitting the sheets straight after blogging, I hogged on the phone with Nurul and Ryan til almost 3am. -.- Then I had this weird dream. I dreamt (insert name here) came to my house and "attacked" me then a catfight started. -.-

Tomorrow is the 22nd. GAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH! But anyways, I have some sort of a special post for tomorrow. Don't ask, just read k tomorrow. Oh oh, I think I'm gonna have my period soon. Shittttttttt. =/



164: Sentosa, yay!

Hi. I am going to Sentosa!



Tuesday, May 19, 2009
163: CAN EXPLODE OR NOT? LOL!

Meet my new bestfriend slash sleeping buddy; Hannah Montana the soft toy monkey!

Yesterday was quite a mundane day til my girls came over to my crib. They were hungry so I decided to serve them lunch. Granny cooked siput with lemak gravy. Instead of calling it siput, I called it kerang. -.- Oh oh, then when I wanted to reheat the lauk using the microwave, I asked Farah, "Farah, lauk siput ni boleh panaskan tak? Nanti siput ni meletup ke tak?" HAHAHAHA LAUGH EH PLEASE LAUGH. How I know the siput will not explode? Hahahaha okay I am really bimbotic. I could imagine myself married but still calling Farah, asking her if the siput or some other lauk will explode or not if it's being reheat using microwave lol. -.-

Oh and and, I am the first one to be invited to Farah's and Kak Imaz's birthday party! ^^


You guys can't crash the party cause I purposely blurred the venue. MUAHAHAHAHA! *evil laughs* I so cannot wait for the party! Thon uh thon lol.

Currently I am chatting with Farah and feeling very, very bored. So sad no one wanna go out with me today. *insert sad face* Eh someone getting Farah the Canon dslr I want! Cheh cheh, I also want leh. *insert cute face*

Eh I just remembered, tomorrow I'm going to Sentosa with Dee! And I am broke, again. -.- K nevermind, I'll psycho Mum into giving me money for tomorrow lol.



Monday, May 18, 2009
162: Town/Karaoke/City Hall







Had a nice day yesterday with Nadya and Nurul. Meet up the two lovelies at Ochard mrt around 3pm. We were hungry so we had our lunch at Puncak in Far East Plaza as usual. After lunch, we quickly made our way to Geylang to meet my mum and her friends for 2-hours karaoke session in Grandlink. But mum and friends were in another room. Coincidentally, Farah and Kak Imaz were there too. Nadya and Nurul sang on top of her lungs til they lost their voices. Hahah after the karaoke session, Mum and friends went to have dinner somewhere as the three of us took mrt to City Hall. Nurul and I were famished so we had our dinner at McDonalds. Then Nadya had to head home early. Nurul and I slacked for awhile before taking the mrt back to Bedok. I wanted to hang out with her in Bedok for awhile but halfway there, Mum asked me to head home. -.- Anyways overall, I had an awesome time with these two pretty lovelies.

Conference on the phone with Nurul and Ryan before hitting the sheets. And please eh, stop bragging about Pasir Ris lah you two. Out of all places in Singapore. -.-

Edward Cullen; I miss you but you never seem to care. Now I realised that I'm am really no one to you. )':
Jacob Black; I like you too. But it's different. You're a part of my life but he was my life, somehow he's still my life.



Sunday, May 17, 2009
161: Belated Mothers' Day celebration

Belated Mothers' Day celebration cum family gathering/dinner at Sakura Internation Buffet. I ate quite a variety of food. I must have gain a few kg last night and my stomach was really bloated. While eating, Ameera and I ogle at hot waiters. Heheh mentel, I know. *mentel smile* After dinner, we walked around Ehub. Thought of meeting Ryan for awhile cause he was working at Nebo Cafe but decided to pass. Around 9plus, we headed home.

I know my blog getting duller and duller each day cause either I'm lazy to update more or I don't really have anything interesting to update. Anyways I am lazy to upload the photos here but as usual, it's all uploaded on Multiply. So here's the link; http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/20/Belated_Mothers_Day_celebration


Oh oh and and of course ---

Happy 20th Birthday, Danny!

Oh and Mum bought me an Esprit shirt which costs $49.90! And I want those white and gold Nike high cut shoes. Cute nak mampus! Grr, so geram I tengok. And most importantly, I want my Canon dslr! October, come faster leh. Oh and I want long hair with curls. I'm gonna psycho Mum into giving me money to put on extensions and when my natural hair is long enough, gonna psycho her again give me money for hair perming. Heh heh!



Saturday, May 16, 2009
160: Rock on Fridaee!


Rock on Fridaee was awesome like I expected it to be. I'm lazy to upload the photos here but I've uploaded it on Multiply as usual and here's the link; http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/19/Rock_on_Fridaee


Peyton and Lucas Pictures, Images and Photos

Lucas: Peyton! It's you.
Peyton: What?
Lucas: When all my dreams come true, the one I want next to me. It's you. It's you Peyton.

Very random, I know. But somehow I dislike the relationship or to be exact, connection Lucas and Peyton has. Lucas cheated on Brooke, Peyton's bestfriend with Peyton. And Peyton was too selfish to sacrifice her love for Brooke. But despite all that, Brooke forgave them both.

Going shopping with Mum. In the evening, Mothers' Day celebration cum family gathering at Sakura International Buffet. Yay, I can't wait! I think I'm gonna gain a few kilograms tonight. But who cares lol.

She better hold him tight, give him all the love.



Friday, May 15, 2009
159: Marina Barrage/City Hall





























Let me start this post with; I broke my Marina Barrage virginity, yay! *insert extremely happy face*

So yeah anyways, yesterday was another day full of laughter with my babygirls. Went to Marrina Barrage first to snap photos before heading down to City Hall and slacked there. I went home around sevenish while the rest went home later. For more photos; http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/18/Marina_BarrageCity_Hall as usual.

Oh oh, and not to forget ---


Happy 16th Birthday, Lala!


Happy 17th Birthday, Arra!