The initial plan yesterday was to meet Nurul around 1pm at Bedok interchange but Mum wanted to treat me and bro Fish & Co. So yeah, took taxi to AMK Hub and it was raining heavily. Walked around AMK Hub before we finally saw Fish & Co. I ordered my all-time favourite New York fish & chips lunch set meal as Mum ordered Spicy Crayfish pasta and bro ordered Seafood Platter for one. Not long after that, our meals arrived. We began eating as we caught with each other. Mum was so mentel, she asked me to snap her photos. Now I know from who I get my mentelness. -.- Anyways, after eating, we walked around AMK Hub again. Then before parting ways with Mum and bro then head off to airport to meet Nurul, I topped up my prepaid and baby's too. Yay! Now we can contact each other anytime, anywhere. *insert extremely happy face* Took the mrt to airport which took forever. Arrived in airport around 3pm and Nurul wasn't alone but Norimah and Azmil was there too. Nurul's intention to come to the airport was to apply a job at Swensen where Ryan's working. Azmil wanted to apply too so we went to Swensen. Bumped into Ryan and said hi before he rushed to his second job in EHub. Yes, this guy has 2 jobs. -.- Nurul and Azmil applied then interviewed for the job as Norimah and I waited for them outside the restaurant. Then Nurul and Azmil was finally done with the interview. Azmil proceeded to Tampines to meet his girlfriend as I accompanied Nurul and Norimah to have their lunch at McDonalds. I was kinda frustrated with baby cause he didn't reply my msg and kept checking my hp for his msg/call like every minute. I'm so paranoid, I know. -.- From airport, we took mrt to Tampines. Meet up with Azmil again and we walked around Tampines Mall then Century Square. Then finally baby replied to my msg and his reason for the late reply was because he was doing his hair and it was his bad hair day. -.- Anyways we decided to slack under the void deck at Norimah's block. Before that, Norimah had to buy some food from McDonalds for her younger sibling. So yeah, bought the food and walked to the void deck. On the way there, bumped into baby who was on the way home from school. So happy to see baby, you know! Instead of heading home, baby tagged us along and slacked under the void deck. Well, baby didn't exactly slacked. He was doing his assigments using his laptop and so I didn't get much attention from him. But I was extremely happy to see him after days. Well, 2 days only actually. But still, I miss him like fuck seh. So all the way walking to the void deck, I stick to him like glue. Don't want to let go of his hand at all. *insert extremely happy face* Nurul and Norimah kept teasing me and told baby how paranoid I was when he didn't reply my msg. Thanks eh korang. -.- So yeah, slacked under the void deck til 7plus and headed home.

And to you-know-who-you-are, you don't know my boyfriend at all okay! So stop blaming him for what happened. I love him very much and you're nothing compared to him. You're good for nothing. So go fuck off and die. And I want my fucking game back, you jerk! When it comes to you and only to you, I ain't gonna communicate with manners or sophistication. You don't deserve it, man.

Meeting baby later cause we've got something to settle and I've been crying my eyeballs out again. )':

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Yay! Mum finally bought me Esclipse! *jumps around happily* I can't wait to start reading. Last night conferenced with Nurul, Ryan and Yan before hanging up first around 1plus. Then I stared blankly at the ceiling. I could not sleep, thinking of baby. ):

I wish I could turn back the time.

I been reading baby's letter and our past conversations online again and again. That's the only thing that could prevent myself from feeling too depressed. But tears won't stop rushing down my cheeks and since yesterday, I've been crying my eyeballs out like as if someone's dead. Yes, someone is dead. He's emotionally dead and I feel terrible. I can't even think straight now and I can feel myself dying emotionally too. Dying in a very slow and gruesome way.

I'm having a very bad headache. My throat still hurts like fuck, my whole body is aching very badly but my heart aches the most. I don't bother to consume any medication cause I want to let myself suffer since no one even care. I rather suffer from the worst disease in this world than suffer another heartbreak. This heart has been broken countless of times til I feel it's gonna be numb soon and it can't even feel anything anymore.

A few days ago, I was the happiest bitch alive. Today, I'm weak and feeling nothing but the opposite of happy. This is no surprise cause sadness and pain has somehow become a huge part of my life.

And baby, you're still the joy of my life. I need you badly right now. )': I miss you so much and I feel so lost right now. My heart aches so much like it's being pinched endlessly. You've managed to make this world a better place to live in eversince you came into my life. I love you k Edward Cullen.

A thousand apologies to Nurul for being the greatest bitch on earth yesterday. I was emotionally unstable and I chose to vent my anger on you. I'm so sorry, babe. I knew all you wanted was to cheer me up but at that point, nothing could cheer me up.

God, I'm so pathetic. Oh and I find Indonesian songs addictive again. -.-


And I want this pink Sony Vaio! But I highly doubt Mum would buy it for me unless she strike lottery or something. Super cute uh the laptop! Ibu, nak ni nak ni. *insert cute face* Oh and I can't wait to get my hands on my Canon dslr which I hopefully be getting in October. Yay!

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Ignore the post above except the Sony Vaio part. I'm okay now and I was just paranoid. -.- Mintak kena sepak eh Nurul. Anyways thanks Nurul for telling me those things. If not, forever I have doubts seh. I love you forever and ever k. Hurry get married cause I wanna rewang and most importantly, makan free. Okay best, okay go!

Meeting Nurul later at Bedok then we'll be heading to airport. Might be seeing Ryan there cause he's working. Last night I slept around 4plus, conferenced with Nurul and Ryan. Okay, I think that's all. I wanna go bathe and get ready.

As usual, for more photos click on this link; http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/14/Beats_Recall_Arts_House


Beats Recall was fun yesterday. I expected it to be much more chaotic than Death Upon Arrival II though. Anyways my brother's band was not bad at all eventhough it was their first time performing in front of an audience. My brother, the vocalist of the band just need to improve on his vocals cause he sounded a little gay. Hahahaha okay sorry, but really seh. Oh and I actually moshed yesterday. I didn't want to mosh at first cause I never even moshed before. Kental right, I know. Okay dah diam eh, lol. So yeah, I did not want to mosh but Indra who was beside me kept on pushing me hard purposely when Devout Recital was performing one of Avenged Sevenfold songs. So I pushed him hard back and the girls beside me were also pushing each other hard purposely. Then one of them accidentally hit me. And that's when the whole moshing started. It was so much fun! My brother didn't want to mosh also at first but Indra and I pushed him. He then also started to mosh and joined us. But pity him seh, his face all kena hit. By girls, some more. -.- Oh and I lost my hair clip when we were moshing and Amirul stepped on my foot! Painful, you know. Everytime I go to a gig, confirm my foot will get stepped on. Sheesh. -.- Anyways overall, the gig was great and I made friends with a few girls there. But most of the time, I'll be talking to my brother, Indra and Amirul. The rest of my brother's friends were sitting down at the seats provided instead of joining us, standing and having fun right in front of the stage. Actually most of the people there were sitting down. -.- I wanted to stay til the gig ends at around 6pm but unfortunately, my family members wanted to go somewhere else. My brother and friends headed to Bugis to hang around while I had to follow my family members. Not fair seh! I only get to watch 3 bands inclusive my brother's band performances. *insert sad face* In the car, my aunt and Granny complained, saying that gigs are somehow dangerous and full of violence. They also said that I should've sit down like a lady and should not mosh and bla bla bla. Oh and they also complained that they're gonna have hearing damages soon. -.- Sheesh, can't blame them for that since their idea of music is Pop Yeh Yeh, dondang sayang or something. -.- Then we proceeded to Beach Road to have an early dinner. I ate alot, I tell you. And my stomach was really bloated which made me feel so sleepy. Hahah I know I'm like a pig. Eat, sleep, eat, sleep. But baby still loves me kan kan kan, lol.

I feel so insecure and tend to doubt baby's feelings towards me. Maybe it's because I've been cheated on too many times already. Damn you, jerk! See, you've turned me into a paranoia. I'm sorry baby, I just can't help but to feel this way. Maybe it's because of your lack of enthusiasm to show PDA, unlike that jerk. But hey, I still love you. Hugs & kisses strictly for you only eh baby. Plus I've finally succeeded in writing you a love letter. *insert happy face*

My throat hurts like fuck, my whole body aches and I've been coughing non-stop. I think I'm gonna have a fever soon. =/ I need baby badly right now. Babyyyyyy.... *insert cute face*

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I feel like shit right now. I'm having sore throat and I've been coughing non-stop. My whole body is aching like fuck and I'm having fever. =/ Been trying to talk to baby online but he's kinda busy cause he's in school and couldn't entertain me much. This makes me feel more worser. *insert sad face* I woke up super early to talk to baby online but he's too busy to entertain me. Okay best! -.- From just now, I've been talking alone online. Thanks eh b.

My Saturday was well-spent with baby and friends. I was suppose to meet baby and the rest in Bedok at 2pm but I was 30 minutes late. Heheh sorry eh y'all. -.-V Anyways meet up with Nurul and Kirah first at Bedok interchange's alighting spot. Then we quickly rushed to Bedok mrt platform to meet my baby and Norimah at the last cabin. From far, I could see baby's fed-up face. How could he not feel fed-up? He waited for me 30 minutes seh. But now you know how I felt eh baby on Friday. You were late more than 30 minutes, you know. -.- K nevermind, next time both of us must learn to be punctual. Cheh cheh, look who's talking. -.- Anyways from Bedok mrt station, we took the train to Bugis. Alighted in Bugis but then decided to head to City Hall cause Norimah's handicapped and the lift in Bugis mrt station weren't working. So yeah, took train City Hall. Norimah needed to complete some assignments so all of us accompanied her to the National Library. Yes, we walked from City Hall to the library. It's really near actually but the weather was so hot! Arrived at the library, I snuggled beside baby as he read some Crime Prevention book. Norimah was busy with her assignments as Nurul and Kirah did their own stuff. Then baby fell asleep and no one entertain me. *insert sad face* Hahah okay not really lah. Then not long after, we decided to head to Arab Street to have our lunch. Bumped into Fatin Misyati, Nurul and I gave her a huge Barney hug. The scorching sun made the walking journey from the library to Arab Street quite torturous although it was fucking near. Arrived the coffee shop and settled down. I didn't want to eat cause I'm sufferring from period cramps and plus my throat felt really dry due to the hot weather. So what I really needed was a cold drink. I needed Ice Lemon Tea, to be exact. But baby didn't allow me to have a cold drink cause it'll worsen my period cramps. -.- So yeah, I ordered only a bottle of mineral water as baby and the rest ordered a place of fried rice each. Jiwa or what korang, lol. I told baby I didn't want to eat cause my stomach really hurts and I had no appetite but he still feed me the rice. I couldn't say no and just let him feed me. Nurul who was beside me, feed me also. Wah.. I feel so princessy! Hahah okay no. Oh and Nurul won't stop insulting and bitching about that jerk to baby. -.- After eating, the girls and me camwhored. And baby wasn't camera-friendly at all, as usual. Around 6pm, baby had to head home. *insert sad face* I sent him halfway to Bugis mrt station. We hugged/kissed/bid each other goodbye. Walked back to the coffee shop to join the girls back. Chit-chatted and camwhored as we wait for Norimah's boyfr, Firdaus and friends to come. Soon, they came. We hung around for awhile before Nurul, Kirah, Norimah and I decided to call it day eventhough it was kinda early for us to call it a day.

And I miss my boyfr already. How now b? *kenings naik-naik* Nevermind, we shall meet on Monday. I love you and you can never forget that cause I tell you that like every hour once. Hahahaha oh and your love letter, alamak I don't know what to write seh. K I shall figure something out soon.

I'm a civilised person. I don't do anything that involves violence. If you wanna have catfight, you can jollywell do it alone. And your name is not stated beside the word Jollywell inside the dictionary. So all human in the english-speaking world can use it without your permission. One more thing, I'm tired of all this shit. I'm still not gonna apologise but I shall pretend nothing happened. Say what you wanna say, blog what you wanna blog k. I don't owe you a living and I don't live in the world to please you. Lastly, if you dislike me, no need to influence others to dislike me too what. That is so primary school eh. Grow up, please. K bye!

Beats Recall later at 2pm! It's my brother's band first time performing and my family members gonna be there. Confirm chaotic sia especially my aunt. Gonna be a little embarrassing. -.- Too bad baby couldn't join me later at the gig cause he has soccer training. *insert sad face* Baby, if can right, I wanna stick with you like glue. I wanna bontot you everywhere. Hahahaha okay no. I think I just scare my boyfr by saying all that, lol.

Oh and gotta organise a group outing for The Conference Clan. Every night talk on the phone but never hang out. Let's go karaoke, people! Then eat roti prata at Safron or however it spelt in Tampines, recommendations by Ryan and Nurul. Okay best, okay go!

P/S As usual, for more photos click on this link; http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/12/Saturday_at_Arab_Street