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Tuesday, June 30, 2009
204: I got over you.

I feel better. I feel like I am a whole new person. All the hatred I had is now gone suddenly. I decided to let bygones be bygones and forgive him. I don't think my forgiveness means anything to him now. But it makes me feel good and ease the pain I've been feeling in my heart for months. Wells, what's done is done. I couldn't possibly turn back the time no matter how badly I wanted to.

On a totally different note, I am craving for sushi, sushi and more sushi please. Irfan's craving is much more random and sudden. He's craving for Chilli Crab. -.- And Farhan is super happy cause I've finally posted about Michael Jackson's death on my blog yesterday eventhough I didn't say much. What only lah this pretty boy heh! Anyways I miss Farah like alot alot lah please. Kak Imaz just came back from Pulau Tioman a few days ago and bought her 2 pair of dresses! No fair, I wanna dresses too. :(

And it's okay to be single. Moving on does not mean you have to start loving someone else and get a new boyfriend. Maybe moving on is about becoming a whole new and better person.

/EDITED!

Your love will run and hide.
Leave me on my own.
- The People's Elbow, Attack Attack.

I am feeling pissed cause my laptop won't let me download songs. And this guy on BearShare is starting to annoy me. I am so gonna block him now.

(minahrep for one minute) HAHAH! Kau tak puas hati? Meh uh, pukul aku sampai kicap uh amacam? Aku pun rindu kau lah nabei cb! Pukimak kau lah lol!



Monday, June 29, 2009
203: Divided by so many memories.






For Friday's photos - http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/28/swimmingbbq_chicken


Friday: Went swimming with my 2 younger siblings and Mama's family at Sengkang Sports Centre or something, located at Farmway. It's the smaller version of Wild Wild Wet and the admission fee is only 80 cents! So yeah, I had lots of fun swimming but I didn't try any of the slides out. After swimming, we headed down to Tampines to meet Mum, Cik Da and her little kids. Mum treated all of us lunch at BBQ Chicken, Tampines One. The Jerk Chicken was so tasty and very spicy. I like! It's a must-try, I tell you. After the overfilling meal, Mum had an appointment with her friends in Town and the rest of us proceeded to Tampines Mall. Went to Cotton On, I bought the shorts I wanted while Ameera bought the top she wanted since forever lol. I actually wanted to get the dress I've been eye-ing for ages, but it's not on sale. So I decided to pass and maybe get it when it's on sale, hopefully soon heh heh. Mama promised to treat us ice cream and Haagen Dazs was just outside Cotton On. We settled down and went through menu. But the prices was too expensive and unreasonable. So we headed to Swensen's for ice cream. Finally I've satisfied my craving for ice cream and had Frosted Chocolate Malt which tasted like heaven! After that, we went to Century Square as Mama had to collect her jewellery from SK Jewellery. Before heading back to Ameera's place, Ameera accompanied me to buy my prepaid top-up card.

Saturday: Intially, Mum was suppose to bring my siblings and I out but she had to attend her friend's engagement ceremony at the last minute. So I went to Island Resort, East Coast to help out at the 4PM LYF Day. Overall, the event was okay and I made lots of new friends.

Sunday: Spent the day with Mum, 2 younger siblings, Mama, Cik Da plus the little kids. Since siblings and I slept over at Ameera's place, we met up with Mum at Tampines Interchange. Then all of us took the mrt to Bugis to meet Cik Da and kids there. Inside the mrt on the way to Bugis, I sat beside a cute guy *insert mentel smile* and our skins kept on touching accidentally. He was so cute, I swear! We alighted at the same station which is Bugis and I couldn't help but to ogle at him. Then I squealed about him to Bibik since Ameera wasn't around. While waiting for Cik Da, we went for lunch first at the Food Junction as we were all famished. Then Cik Da finally came and we headed to the BHG. From BHG, we proceeded to Bugis Street. I wanted to get a new dress but unfortunately, nothing caught my eyes. Plus the place was so crowded and it made me moodless to shop. We then went to McDonalds for ice cream before walking around Parco and Bugis Junction. Mama was tired so she and her kids decided to head home first. Followed by Cik Da and her kids. The rest of us then walked to Suntec. Went to Harris as Mum wanted to get some school stuff for my siblings. Afterwhich, we decided to pay Starbucks a visit. Maman was on duty and I gave him a huge Barney hug since we haven't met for so long! He looks different now. More hotter now heh heh! I was hoping Faruq was on duty but unfortunately, he wasn't. Haiya! After that, Mum, siblings and I decided to take 107 home. Inside 107, bumped into Fairuz Ibrahim! The ex boyfriend I dated when I was in Secondary 2. I still remember we used to go on study dates cause I was having my EOY and he was taking his O levels. Anyways, he sat beside me and I gave him a huge Barney hug lol. We caught up about almost everything all the way back to Hougang. I don't know why but I had so much to talk to him lol. He then alighted at the bus stop before Serangoon JC while my family members and I alighted at Hougang Interchange.

to YOU - I didn't know what to feel when you hugged me out of the sudden. But yes, I was a little shocked and didn't know how to react. Somewhat, the hug was something I needed for a long time. I felt better and I had alot to tell you but I couldn't. Mental block, I guess. Things are very different now and we're miles apart. I wish I really could turn back the time. I missed the way things were months ago. No ______, no feuds. But what's done is done and life has to move on. Now I just hope things would be better between us and I really hope to meet you soon.

Anyways, I wanna thank these people for helping me get through the dark period and brightening up my life. Thank you for constantly being there for me to hear me out and I love you guys!

Faris - The Sunshine to my cloudy day whom makes me laugh with his corny jokes and annoying laughter. I swear this army boy to be will always be my Abang Handsome, Jacob Black and favourite gayfag lol.
Farhan - My pretty boy who's so obsessed with Megan Fox lol. The one who made me realised that life isn't all about love and relationships. But what matters the most is yourself, family and friends.
Yaan - This cute boy always accompany online late at night and we'll talk crap non-stop. Sucha funny boy!
Irfan - Eventhough we've known each other for less than a week, we can click very well and have become very close. He always showers me with praises which make me blush lol and we could text each other all day long.
Farah - My favourite homegirl who's always stuck in the same situation as me. Among the rest, she understands and knows me the most. I love spending time with her and we always have something to talk or joke about. She never fails to erase my sadness away eventhough just for awhile.
Zee - She always give me advices and encouragement to move on. I've been wanting to hang out with this lovely girl but there's always something stopping us. Nevermind, we shall meet up soon!

And Ameera, I am so proud of you babe! Finally after six years, you confessed your feelings for him. All the best and he's crazy if he doesn't feel the same way. I love you cousin!

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I know this is a little too late but rest in peace, Michael Jackson and may Allah always be with you. Amin.



Saturday, June 27, 2009
202: Better In Time

Currently using Ameera's laptop and yes, I am at her crib since yesterday. Will do a proper update and upload photos on Multiply once I'm home. Have a great weekend, everyone! :)



Friday, June 26, 2009
201: Gotta break down and breathe.


I had a very bad day yesterday. I can't stop crying. I was feeling depressed, angry, pissed, upset, sad and stupid all in one. Tired of crying, I went to the kitchen and ate whatever is edible inside the fridge. Can't find anything more to eat, I went to the pasar malam nearby alone and bought more food. My mental health was seriously in a huge mess. Finish eating, I took a nap for a few hours. Around 8plus, Awie came and did some presentation. He was nervous at first but he was okay after awhile.

Awie: You got nerve pain?
Intan: Nope, heartpain got uh.
Awie: -.-



Thursday, June 25, 2009
200: Sentosa!




For more photos - http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/27/Sentosa

The all-girls Sentosa outing was awesome! At first I thought I couldn't wake up on time as I slept at 6am in the morning and I was suppose to wake up at 8.30am. That's like less than 3 hours of sleep! But fortunately, I managed to wake up at 9am and msg-ed the girls. Helped Granny to prepare Mee Goreng and ran some errands before getting ready. Meet up with Farah, Anna and Ziela at Hougang mrt control station. Took the mrt to Harbourfront and meet up with Nini there. Took the monorail to Sentosa, followed by the tram to Pahlawan beach. Luck wasn't on our side as it started to rain. We settled down under the shelter and we camwhored. The rain finally stopped and we moved to some other spot. Farah and I could not wait but to get into the water. Soon after, Anna joined us. Ziela didn't bring extra clothes so she just watched us by the side while Nini took photos of us. Feeling famished, we returned to the shore and had our lunch. We ate as we camwhored and joked around. Anna and Farah went back into the water as I took a nap. Around 4pm, we washed up and took monorail back to Harbourfront. Meet up with Faiz at Vivo City afterwhich we proceeded to our secret spot at the sky park. Farah wanted to get a new, cheap shirt as her top was showing too much of her cleavage. Nini, Anna and I accompanied Farah, leaving our belongings with Faiz and Ziela giving them some time alone together. Walked to Harbourfront Center to search for Farah's shirt but to no avail. We ended up buying ice cream from McDonalds and sushi from Cold Storage. Returned to our secret spot and Aqul came. Had a mini picnic there as there were still lots of food left. Slacked and we planned to go eat Durians together soon. Bored, we decided to take 80 back to Hougang. On the way back to Hougang inside 80, I kept to myself most of the time cause I suddenly had no mood. Arrived at Hougang, I followed them to the pasar malam near Hougang Mall before heading back home.

Homies, we shall eat Durians and dine at Sakae Sushi soon. We're all monsters for the king of fruits and of course, Japanese food!

I feel like I'm wearing a mask. I've been pretending to love. I've been faking a smile and laughter every single day. It's been months and I still haven't manage to genuinely smile or laugh yet. It makes me cry whenever I think too much about it. I am drowning deep in the waters of depression. To make things worse, no one can save me. I am lost with no direction and I feel so confused most of the time. My faith is shaking.

I am in a state of extreme drowsiness right now. I don't think I'll be hogging on the phone with Farhan tonight cause I'm really in need of sleep. Good night and have a nice day tomorrow, readers!

/EDITED!

Hi hi. I just woke up from my beauty sleep heh heh ^^ Last night talked to Farhan for awhile before chatting online with Yaan til wee hours. We've chatting online til wee hours for a few days now. So I didn't really hit the sheets early last night. In fact, I dozed off with my laptop on around 3plus in the morning. -.- Yaan's fault uh ni lol okay no.

Awie coming over to my crib later. I don't know whatever for but it has to do with his small business. So random, so awkward. We're cousins but we don't really talk much? Actually, he's the one who doesn't talk much.

Eh I think I'm crushing on someone. Woot woot! ^^ K I know no one asked but who cares HAHAHAHA!

/EDITED!

For now on, please don't promise me anything. Cause if I let myself hope and it came to nothing, it would kill me all over again. :'(

/EDITED!

This song is for YOU*

Promise In The Dark - Keri Hilson

Listen…

Can’t count on you most of all when I really need it
It’s the simple things that you do really hurt my feelings
The more I try, the more I’m starting to see it
This can’t work anymore, than you believe it

Goodbye may come as a shock
Even though I love you a lot
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

Listen…

I just don’t know what the problem is, what the deal is
Was I there too much, did I move too fast, I couldn’t see it?
All these promises are probably how you deal with it
I’m tired of hearing you say your innocent

Don’t think I forgot
Because I really didn’t, who cares if you’re lieing or not
I’ve given every breath I’ve got
Sometimes you gotta break down and breathe

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

We all make mistakes
Sometimes we do desperate things
What does it prove? NOTHING
And you never do nothing wrong

Then what took you so long, took you so long
Cuz I keep, keep hanging on, keep, keep hanging on

And how many times I gave my heart
To how many times we fell apart
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me

And how many times I gave you me
Divided by so many memories
And it equals
A promise in the dark
So don’t promise me
So don’t promise me

*YOU is more than one person.



Wednesday, June 24, 2009
199: LG KS360


I am feeling extremely elated now. Mum agreed to get me this baby above soon, yay! Actually, she wanted to get a new handphone for brother. But brother wants my current handphone which is W910i. So what else, I took the advantage and bugged Mum to get me this pink LG KS360. Mum said she'll get me the handphone by either end of this month or next month and my W910i will be brother's. Since I am getting a new handphone, no shopping for a month. No new dresses for me this month. :(

On a brighter note, later will be going to Sentosa with the girls. This is an all-girls outing which means no boys allowed heh. Finally we're gonna go to Sentosa together and have fun at the splishy splashy beach. I am so sexcited please! ^^

And girls, please try your very best not to be late. Latecomers will be strip naked as a punishment at the beach later on. Especially Ziela since you're always late lol. Okay see you lovelies later. Mwah!

Currently chatting with Farhan. His prepaid's low now but we managed to talk on the phone just now. Thank you pretty boy for brightening my day! Yes, we're gonna go watch Transformer 2 soon together.

I am craving for Thai food and sushi. Lol random I know and I've been having all sorts of random and sudden cravings these days. Anyways I swear I was extremely pissed with my internet connection just now. I had a overpowering urge to hammer the modem but of course I didn't. Instead I called Singtel and managed to fix the internet connection with the guidance of the customer service officer over the phone. Yay me!



Tuesday, June 23, 2009
198: I'm better off alone

Happy 18th Birthday, Zully Malto!

/EDITED!



Oh wells, nothing interesting happened yesterday. It was much more duller than other days. Anyways I stayed at home the whole freaking day for the first time since last week. I was in the state of extreme drowsiness and laziness. I spent the day, hogging the laptop. Chatting with Farah and Farhan the pretty boy mostly before he went to his friend's crib.

Last night, I felt depressed out of the sudden. It's not because of Sunshine, I must say. I'm afraid it's because of someone else. I was frustrated with myself. Then I started to cry alone in silence. I should start making myself busy again so the thoughts of him won't fill my currently empty mind.

Soon after, Farhan called and he cheered me up. This pretty boy still doesn't believe that Megan Fox is a man. And he thinks Joe Jonas is a gayfag. Nabei cb uh this boy lol. Anyways he said that I'm weird cause I'm the one that calls him Farhan instead of An like everybody else. -.- Whatever it is, you still owe me ice cream k lol.

I wonder how can we be this far when we were once so close. We're drifting further apart by day since the small tiff we had. Surprisingly, I could not be bothered. But you're still saying that things are the same and showing me that everything's gonna go back to normal when it's not. I can hardly talk to you anymore without any cold or bitterness. But somehow I do miss your annoying laughter and lame, corny jokes. Oh I miss you, Sunshine.

Mengapa yang lain bisa
Mendua dengan mudahnya
Namun kita terbelenggu
Dalam ikatan tanpa cinta



Monday, June 22, 2009
197: The Weekend








For more Saturday's photos - http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/26/sheeshailuma

Saturday: Spent the day with the usuals. Meet up with Farah and Anna at Hougang Mall. We went to Cotton On to get each the Cotton On bag plus one for Ziela. Bought wrapping paper for Ziela's present then proceeded to the rooftop to wrap the present we bought for her a few days before. Afterwhich, we walked to Hougang Interchange and took 51 from there to Bugis. Meet up with Faiz and Ziela first in front of Long John Silver. Not long after, Aqul and Nini came. Walked to Reis Turkish Cafe at Haji Lane for our sheesha - Ziela's treat. Ordered two sheesha, I couldn't remember what the flavours we ordered were though. The sheesha were stronger than the usual we had at Al Tazzag. For some reasons, we were feeling a little high especially Aqul. After sheesha, we walked aimlessly before deciding to just hang around Iluma. Walked around the new mall and finally we found a spot to chill at the top level. Since I was having my period which makes me more sensitive than usual, I teared due to some reasons. But I felt okay soon after that. Then security guards came and told us that we couldn't hang out there. So we decided to just head back home. All of us except Ziela and Faiz took 51 back to Hougang. Inside the bus, we were talking non-stop and laughing too loud as always. Then randomly, we showed each other our kental photos on our ezlink cards. Aqul's face was damn fucking hilarious man! He was so chubby and the way he smiled in the photo was really funny. Even the bus inspector who came to check our ezlink cards agrees hahahaha!

Bus Inspector: Gimme your ezlink. Show me your handsome face.
Aqul: *handed his ezlink card to him*
Bus Inspector: *sees his hilarious & kental face* WALAUWEI!
All of us: HAHAHAHA!
Bus Inspector: So different uh your face. But now better uh. *handed him his ezlink card back & walks away*

We couldn't stop laughing afterwards. Finally we arrived in Hougang, all of us alighted at the bus stop near Anna and Farah's blk. Farah and Anna accompanied Nini, Aqul and I wait for 62. As usual, 62 took like a million years to arrive. While waiting, we talked about lots of things and we girls talked about how fortunate guys are that they do not have to go through period and all. Finally 62 came and I alighted at the bus stop near Punggol Park while Nini and Aqul alighted at Punggol Interchange.

Sunday: Went to Pak Long's house in Tanglin Halt for a family gathering as my 8 year old cousin, Haszrin just berkhatan a few days ago. Didn't do much there except eat, sleep, eat and sleep. Oh yeah and of course, played with the young ones plus talked to my aunts. Haszrin's little brother, Hasryan was so cute! I disturbed him on why he didn't sunat like his brave brother did.

Me: Apasal tak sunat, Ryan? Kalau tak sunat, tak boleh kahwin tau.
Hasryan: Tak nak. Ryan tak nak kahwin.

He is so adorable lah can. Then something happened but I shall not elaborate more here. For the first time ever, I saw Abang Shidi got so mad at his mother that he walked away. I tried to calm him but he ignored me completely. -.- Anyways it's not his fault. Shall not talk about this anymore. Soon after the incident, my family and I went home. But before that we dropped by Acap's house, to give his family some food. After that, headed straight home.

Talked to Farhan on the phone before hitting the sheets. This pretty boy is so obsessed with Megan Fox. -.- Please eh Farhan, Megan Fox is a man, for God's sake. Sheesh! Lol anyways you owe me ice cream k. Plus the Twilight saga is not emoshit k nabei uh you lol.

Now I am very, very bored please and not in my best mood, I should say. Plus that someone hasn't making things better also or maybe I am the ego one. Ugh whatever k I can't be bothered already. I have my homegirls and that's all I ever need. I've been a bitch and I think it's great.

Oh and a few nights ago, I had this dream. I don't know whether it's a good or bad dream. But I am absolutely positive that it will never come true. I also don't want it to come true? Zee's right, I am one confused girl. -.- Anyways seriously babe, meet up soon!

/EDITED!

Heard that RP is suspected with a H1N1 case muahahahaha! Wonder who's the nice person that is infected. Oh wells, hope _____ will get infected too and die. I am so mean and evil, I know.

Currently chatting with Farhan and finding a new blogskin for my blog. I am feeling really, really bored. I am craving for ice kacang hahahaha random I know.



Sunday, June 21, 2009
196: Tiring Weekend

I am tired. Will do a proper update tomorrow and Saturday's photos will be uploaded on Multiply by tomorrow. K bye!



Saturday, June 20, 2009
195: Apa Artinya Cinta


Hannah Montana, the soft toy monkey who accompany me each and every night in bed without fail.



And Farah won't stop calling HER, Ahmad Elias Sufi or something -.-


Anyways I met up with Farah and Anna yesterday at the bus stop opposite my blk. Anna wanted to borrow a dress for later. Borrowed her a dress and we proceeded to the void deck nearby to hang out. We chit-chatted and I had this crazy idea of eating durians at Bishan Skatepark lol. Bored, we headed down to the library to read and borrow books. Afterwhich, both of them followed me back to my crib and had their late lunch there.



Watched Apa Artinya Cinta online yesterday's evening. Samuel Rizal is so adorable lah can! His character in the movie, Dara doesn't talk much but when he does, he sounds so cute please. Why can't Sunshine be like him? Instead my baby talks non-stop and has a very annoying yet cute laughter. Lol but no matter what, I still love him the same and he's the cutest thing everrrrr like Hercules. I'm sure when he reads this, he's gonna kembang and smile from ear to ear which makes him even more cuter. Abang Handsome mah hahahaha!

/EDITED!

I am pissed off and I'm tired of everything. Do whatever you want k baby. Do whatever that pleases you and makes you happy. I'm tired of repeating the same thing over and over again. I'm not giving up on you, on us but I am very tired of your crap seriously. If you wanna talk or meet me today, you have to find your own way. I won't be entertaining any of your calls/smses cause I will be too busy having fun with my friends, like you prolly did last night. You wanna be an ass right, I can be worser. I think I have been nice enough to you.

I love him very much and everything but sometimes he really gets on my nerves that I swear I feel like killing him. Grrr, let's not talk about the boy anymore. It makes me feel like killing him even more. On a brighter note, will be going sheesha with the usuals yay!

/EDITED!

I made up my mind. Farah said something that made me think and I think I don't wanna get into a relationship. I think Sunshine and I should stick to dating til we're strong enough to step into a relationship. I know I keep changing my mind and it's so contradicting. But I think this time I am gonna stick to this decision I made.

He better not think this is because of what he did last night. I just feel like I need more time to adapt to him and all. Ahhh, and suddenly I feel so insecure and paranoid. Damn you ex boyfriends! Except my first boyfriend, of course. He was awesome and I dumped him. -.-

/EDITED!



IT'S ALL ABOUT THE CLIMB



Friday, June 19, 2009
194: Ma homegirl Farah







Spent the day with my homegirl, Farah. Took train to Toa Payoh to search for second hand skateboards at Cash Convertor. But there weren't any skateboards left. Bumped into Farah's ex boyfriend, the one with Donald Duck voice but Farah dragged me away before I could shout his name. Had our late lunch at Fork & Spoon since we were hungry. Both of us had Ayam Panggang Ojolali. It tasted okay but not as good as Ayam Panggang Kalasan that we had at Lucky Plaza the other day. After eating, Farah wanted to head down to the Cash Convertor in Bedok. But I didn't want to and Bedok isn't my favourite place. So I suggested that we go karaoke at Grandlink in Geylang - my treat. She agreed and we took train to Paya Lebar then walked to Grandlink which is just nearby. Karaoke for 2 whole hours before heading home. Thank you for the awesome day and I love you, Farah!

I've learnt my lesson. I've learn that the boy should not meet my closefriends yet til I knew him well which I already do, of course. It's not that I am sombong or whatever shit uh, but I do not want my closefriends to know him more than I do. I do not want him to share his problems with them instead of me. After all, I'm the girlfriend not them. I want them to bond, yes I do. But as strictly as friends only especially the girls. I do not care if you have problems and you wanna share your problems with him or whatever shit. I seriously do not care and please, my baby isn't someone you can anyhow ask him out cause I will never allow it unless I am around. There's no such thing as you-do-not-wanna-tell-cause-i'm-gonna-get-angry shit. So please girls, get your dirty hands off my man. He's MINE, I repeat, MINE!

I sound like a psycho woman lol. But hey, I rather be a psycho now than lose my boyfriend cause I do not understand him and my friend understands him more. I so don't wanna face the same thing again.

/EDITED!


Terasa is it? I have issues with you and I'm not gonna hide it. I made it clear that if I hate that someone, I would really make it obvious. If this makes me childish, then I am very childish. So what? *insert cb face*

Currently chatting with Sunshine, the king of all bodoh lol. Okay sorry baby, Hercules k Hercules hahahaha! Can't help but to irritate him like hell til he merajuk. Since it's on MSN, he cannot irritate me back with his annoying laughter and his suara kapal. Muahahahaha too bad eh ass! :P Farah and I are missing you very much lehzxz. :( On a brighter note, we're going sheesha tomorrow! Yay, hugs & kisses for me and Farah also k hahahaha!

/EDITED!

Seriously, FAIRUZ, try harder.

/EDITED!

ZIELA AND FAIZ, I SWEAR I AM GONNA KILL YOU BOTH WITH MY BARE HANDS TOMORROW!



Thursday, June 18, 2009
193: Love is in the airrrrrr!







Watched Drag Me To Hell with Farah and Kak Imaz at AMK Hub yesterday. The movie was awesome! It was really scary that I accidentally tore the popcorn paper bag which cause the popcorn inside to scattered all over me and the floor. -.- After the movie, we walked around AMK Hub. We were famished so we went to the hawker centre nearby to have our early dinner which is my treat. After eating, we walked around the shophouses before proceeding to the supermarket to get sushi. Yum! Inside the supermarket, the both of them kept on trying to squeeze my breasts which made me laugh loudly. -.- Anyways after getting our sushi, decided to head home. Aizan saw me inside the bus but never say hi. -.- I didn't even notice we were in the same bus til he msg-ed me right after he alighted from the bus. Farah who noticed that he kept staring at me, told me that he's cute. Alighted at the same bus stop as Farah and Kak Imaz before taking 62 to my area.

The road to romantic bliss is filled with many potholes and speed bumps. People think that once they've found that someone special everything is smooth sailing. But nothing could be further than the truth. Good relationships only stay that way through hard work and personal sacrifices on the part of participants. I wanna thank you again, Sunshine for everything. I never felt this special for such a long time. I LOVE YOU BODOH!

Speaking of my favourite bodoh, I let Farah listen to the recording of last night's conversation with Sunshine. It was so hilarious that both Farah and I laughed hard inside the cab on the way to AMK til the taxi driver looked at us. Farah cannot tahan but to laugh hard at the part when we(but mostly him) re-enacted a part from Titanic where Sunshine with penuh semangat make the kapal sound. Sumpah kelakar nak mampus! But very, very adorable heh heh! Oh and also the part when he laughed this non-stop Huak Huak. Super cute, I tell you! Now I seriously miss that irritating laughter of his! He must be outside with his boys(again!) since he's not online. Grrr, I hate it when his prepaid's low. This means I can't give him tons of Missed Calls which irritates him to the core and make him go home. Hope he gets his ass home and give me a call very, very soon.



Wednesday, June 17, 2009
192: Imperfections

Intially, I wanted to go to the National library again to do my cerpen. But Mum was craving for chappati and asked little sis and I to accompany her to Little India. Took train there and Mum wanted to treat her colleagues so she asked them to come down. While waiting for them, I had a sudden craving for Indian sweets. So went to the coffee shop nearby and bought them. Since I was so famished and Mum's colleagues took sucha long time, I munched on the sweets. Soon after, Mum's colleagues came and we proceeded to the coffee shop which is famous for its chappati. Settled down, order the food and ate. After eating, her colleagues parted ways with us. The three of us then head down to Haji Lane as I wanted to do some shopping at House of Japan. But sadly, the shop was under renovation when we came there. -.- I was really disappointed. Walked around Bugis Junction and I had no mood to shop for the first time in my almost sixteen years living on earth, seriously. Then we went to Cold Storage to buy some groceries and I had a sudden craving for sushi. Bought them and ate them straightaway. After purchasing the groceries, walked around Bugis Street but nothing caught my eyes. Told you, I wasn't in the mood to shop. Decided to just call it a day and head home. Took 51 back to Hougang and before walking home, we went to the pasar malam first to buy food for my brothers. Bought the food and walked home.

On a brighter note, I've topped up my prepaid! Yay, Sunshine can call me and we can hog on the phone til wee hours. But the bad news is I have to tolerate his perangai-ness and his non-stop huak huak. -.- Still, he's the best of the best. If I must tolerate his perangai-ness and irritating laugh, let me list down what he must and have been tolerating;

1) MY UNPREDICTABLE MOODS SWINGS/PMS
- I would randomly call him up and cry for no reason or merajuk every 5 minutes over small, petty things.
2) MY HIGH EXPECTATIONS/MAINTAINANCE
- Since I was little, what I want is what I eventually get. So I expect to live in the same way FOREVER.
3) MY OBSESSIONS OVER THE TWILIGHT SAGA AND HANNAH MONTANA
- I would randomly say a Twilight quote which make him blur and I would sing The Climb over the phone in my most horrible voice.
4) MY INSENSITIVE COMMENTS
- I would just say ANYTHING that comes into my mind without even thinking and trust me, most of them aren't nice things.
5) MY COMPLAINS ABOUT ALMOST EVERYTHING
- Pity him, really. I could complain about that something/someone over and over again.
6) MY NAGGINGS WHEN HE DOES SOMETHING I DISLIKE ESPECIALLY SMOKING TOO MUCH
- This one, he deserves it lah. everytime I must nag then do stuff. He wants to die together with me and wants our graves to be side by side. But if he continues smoking 10 cigarette sticks per day, trust me he'll die first.
7) MY CONFUSION
- One minute, I would be saying I love you. The next, I would be saying the opposite. Contradicting, I know.

Seriously, how did he even handle and tolerate me all this while? You know what, maybe this is love. He accepted me, flaws and all. Thank you Sunshine and I'm sorry if I haven't been a good date to you. But guys are all the same and sooner or later, I know you'll hurt me in one way or another and eventually dump me for someone better. I mean, how long can you tolerate all this? Even if you can, I'll bore you. So yeah, while you're still here tolerating and loving me despite my countless flaws, thank you and a thousand apologies. But this is me, who I am so take it or leave it.

Currently, he's uncontactable cause his prepaid's low and he's outside with his boys I suppose. He better be home soon and I am now waiting for him to either come online or call me. So yeah, good night everyone and have a nice day later.

/EDITED!


It's 2.37am and I just finished talking to Sunshine. The reason I am smiling from ear to ear right now heh heh! Anyways we didn't hog on the phone too long because he just went outwith his boys. Well, he promised to be home by 4am sharp and gimme a call. So I am waiting for him to come home and call me back right now.

Anyways we had a small tiff because I wanted to msg Danny but instead I accidentally send the msg to Sunshine yesterday's evening. Since Sunshine's prepaid was low and he was outside with his boys, he couldn't reply my msg or call me back. So as soon as he got home just now, he called me up straightaway. He asked me who's Danny and he knew the msg was actually for Danny cause I started the msg with Danny's name. I was blur-blur and asked him back who's Danny. -.- Wrong move, I tell you. Then he read the msg out loud to me. Of course lah, member merajuk sekejap kan. I apologised for being so selengeh using my most cutest voice ever. Thank God, he forgave me. Tahu pun jealous eh eh eh! :P Soon after that, he became hyper as always. But more hyper than usual actually.

I swear our conversation just now was freaking hilarious eventhough it started off with the small tiff. Sunshine made me laugh til my stomach hurts, I tell you. Baru angkat kotak berat sikit dah feeling-feeling Hercules hahahaha! I told him to accompany me put on hair extensions soon and he told me that he also wanna extent his hair, his sideburns to be exact. One strand of hair per sideburn. After that, he told me he wanted to dye his hair white, blue and purple. -.- He was freaking hyper just now and he made me laugh hard when he made his voice sound like a bapok lol! I recorded it and I actually wanted to upload it on Imeem but later confirm he sulk. So no need uh and it'll be for my personal hearing only.

EH WAIT! IT'S ONLY 3AM BUT HE HAS CALL ME BACK WHICH MEANS HE'S HOME YAY! Gini lah Intan suka sekali. Sayang baby alot alot! Okay okay, I better talk to him now. *smile from ear to ear*

Love is in the air, people! *kenings naik-naik*

/EDITED!


It's already 12plus in the afternoon and I just woke up. I was feeling very, very happy today. Last night I hogged on the phone with Sunshine til around 4plus in the morning before hitting the sheets. I can't stop smiling from ear to ear now. Let's be more than this, bodoh. *kenings naik-naik*

I WANNA GO OUT PLEASEEEEEEEEEE!



Tuesday, June 16, 2009
191: National Library slash Bugis with Farah

I had quite a nice day yesterday. Went to the National library around 2pm in the afternoon alone. Did the first paragraph of my cerpen after almost an hour of cracking my head on what to write. Chatted with Farah online and she was feeling really bored. So I asked her to come down and accompany me which she did. She came around an hour later and we were famished. We then had our early dinner at Tong Seng. Afterwhich, we walked around Bugis Junction, Bugis Street and Iluma. I wanted to go to Haji Lane to check out House of Japan but this girl was freaking lazy to walk there. Since Bugis is a bore to us now, we decided to go somewhere else. Intially we wanted to take the bus to AMK but we purposely miss a few buses cause there were crowded with people. Then 51 came, we then decided to just take the bus back to Hougang and slack with Anna. Arrived in Hougang, we got ourselves an ice cream each then we called Anna up using the public phone as both of our prepaids are low. We waited for Anna nearby the playground as we talked about our exes. Farah kept mocking her ex boyfriend's voice which sound like Donald Duck hahahaha! Then I also told her about a few of my exes especially my first love. I swear we were all very kental then. Not long after, Anna came and we proceeded to the void deck we usually lepak. Showed what I wrote so far to Anna and Farah using my laptop, of course. Then went through my old photos and we all remember my Dora The Explorer hair. -.- The three of us then read a few of my MSN past conversations. Around 9pm, I decided to head home and they accompanied me at the bus stop til 62 came.

Just when I thought I no longer think about him, my thoughts ran towards his direction more than usual. Then I felt frustrated and angry at myself. I've let myself down again. I wish he's dead so that I won't have any reason to fill myself with false hopes.

Eversince that day, I suddenly feel that I should distance myself from her cause of him. I wanted things to be like before, I would share everything with her. But now I could not do so as I felt that I have built this wall between us and it's all because of him. Things feel awfully different now but somehow it's for the best. I would do whatever it takes to avoid and not see him ever again. I would try my very best not to step foot at Pasir Ris or Tampines unless I really have to. I'm this pathetic now. Oh God, what have I've become? Sometimes I feel she would dangle him on purpose in front me eventhough she knows I feel extremely jealous. I know I have no right at all to feel that way anymore but I can't help it. To me now, he's a stupid jerk. The king of all jerks eventhough he can be really interesting and even witty. But still, he's the undisputed champion of all-time jerks.

I should start thinking about the future and date people that actually stick around for a change.

/EDITED!


Finally got to hog on the phone with Sunshine and we talked til around 6am! We talked about almost everything. We had so many stories to share eventhough it has only been a few days since we talked and we even talked online everyday. From me complaining about someone to him with his non-stop huak huak which is becoming quite an irritant hahahaha! At one point, I was crying due to some reasons and he made me laugh with his perangai-ness. Promise I'll top up my prepaid soon and won't use the money to eat like I did yesterday lol! Don't ask, long story. :) Okay okay I miss you my favourite bodoh!

I'm gonna head down to the library again today, I guess.



Monday, June 15, 2009
190: Abang Andi's wedding!

Selamat Pengantin Baru, Abang Andi & Kak Elya!

As usual, for more photos; http://intanina.multiply.com/photos/album/25/Abg_Andis_wedding

I took tons of photos on the majlis pernikahan but I didn't snap much photos on the majlis persandingan. I was too busy mingling with my cousins, aunts and relatives. Overall I had a very good time although the weather was humid.

Currently chatting with Farah online and Facebook-ing. My prepaid is low so it means I cannot hog on the phone til wee hours. I'm very sad lah can. :( On a brighter note, I might be topping up my prepaid later in the evening. In the afternoon, I should be in the library alone to start on my cerpen which is due in less than a month. This means I cannot merayap anyhow starting from today til 30 June. What a sad life I am leading! :( But anyways I'm looking forward to this Saturday. Will be attending Eeefa's bbq party at Pasir Ris Park then off drinking with the usuals. Drinks will be on Ziela, yay! I don't know whether we're thonning or not. Hope the plan will not cock up and go haywire. I miss you girls alot alot k! And since Mum and I are gonna go shopping soon, I'm gonna get a birthday gift for Ziela. But currently I have no idea on what to get her. Oh wells I'll figure it out soon.

TAG REPLIES!
Ziela: Ingat tau takmo buat anak ramai-ramai hahahaha!
Fiz: Alrighty, you're relinked. :)
Alala pom: Hello, thanks for dropping by. The version of Heartless is sang by Kris Allen, the new American Idol. :)
Shuriianiie: Uhmkay whatever.
Faris: -.- you don't have to wish to be him please. I like you just the way you are and I miss you too bodoh.
Farah: Jangan layankan sangat si Faris ni. Nanti naik lemak hahahaha!



Sunday, June 14, 2009
189: Another long day

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY, ZIELA!

Now you can watch NC16 movies already while I have to wait til October. -.- But anyways I hope you'll have a memorable birthday and have fun eating at Carousel with the family. May happiness will always be with you and last long with Faiz the fart machine. You two are the sweetest thing! Get married fast so that I can makan free. Standard uh hahahaha! Oh and make many babies k. But not too many uh cause later Hari Raya you come to my house with your children and all, I must give alot of duit raya. I bankrupt, you know hahahaha! Okay that's all, I guess. Stop smiling in front of the computer and better say thank you to me for this wish hahahaha I love you k Sealion. Mwahhhhhhh!

I had a very tiring day yesterday. I took alot of photos and all of them will be uploaded on Multiply prolly by Monday cause I'm too tired to do it now. Plus there's like hundreds of them and I need to resize them first. This is just the majlis pernikahan. I think I'm gonna snap more photos later at the majlis persandingan. A relative of mine; Nurul Huda keeps on calling Faris, Fairuz by mistake. -.- I was quite annoyed cause hearing that sardonic bastard's name gives me instant heartpain.

On Monday, I'm gonna spend my time at the library and focus on nothing but my cerpen. I have less than a month to complete it. I'm starting to panic please. On a brighter note, I will be going shopping soon with Mum. I'm so getting the black shorts and dress from Cotton On! Plus I'm gonna get something vintage from House Of Japan. Since I am craving for pizza, I'm gonna either ask Mum to treat me Pizza Hut or Pastamania. Either one will do.

Anyways currently my prepaid is extremely low. So in case of emergency, please do not call/sms me hahahaha!



Saturday, June 13, 2009
188: I'm the loser.


I gotta make trips to the library starting from next week ALONE. Anyways yeah, went to the Projek Cerpen briefing yesterday. Made a new friend, Safiah who lives in Pasir Ris out of all places in Singapore. -.- I'm lazy to elaborate more on what happened at the briefing and all. Later and tomorrow I'll be at Abang Andi's wedding. Looking forward to meet Puteri Namirah after years.

I slept at around 4am in the morning and it's not because I hog on the phone with Sunshine. I was rather pissed with him due to some reasons. I couldn't sleep and kept on tossing and turning. I think I have officially give up on myself. I feel very shitty/moody/touchy these days. I feel like I am a zombie or something.

TAG REPLIES!
Farah: A'ah I merajuk cause korang never layan me. AND I KNOW YOU'RE MIMI HAHAHAHA CB!
Ziela: Come online, later I send you k.



Friday, June 12, 2009
187: I date losers.

1) Depression.
2) I suck at pool.
3) Pretty lights! (see photo above)
4) I really hate ex boyfriends.
5) 20 June + Vodka = FUN!
6) I wanna watch Hannah Montana the movie again!
7) I wanna go shop at House Of Japan.
8) I'm craving for pizza.
9) I hate ex boyfriends more now.
10) Sunshine loves his hair more than he loves me hahahaha! (read the conversation below)

Me: Last night you sleep what time?
Him: 11am.
Me: HOW COME SO LATE?!
Him: I cannot sleep lah.
Me: Why???
Him: Cause I fikiran pasal rambut I. I wanna work but nowadays very hard to find work that don't involve me cutting my hair.
Me: -.-


I MERAJUK ALREADY. NOW PUJUK LAH HAHAHAHA!

/EDITED!

TAG REPLIES!
Dee: Thanks for encouragement! :) I miss you, by the way. Hang out soon k!
Lin: Hello Lin! I bought it for $10 at Bugis Street. Thanks for dropping by! :)
Ziela: Rabak you laugh at me. Pujuk lah hahahaha!



Thursday, June 11, 2009
186: Fact


Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu.

I never wanted to hate you but things are better this way. I wanna run far far away but what's the point? I know you would never care and let alone run after me. It saddens me that there's nothing I could do to be together with you again. I know that whatever I just said would not affect you in any way. Seeing you again after promising myself that I would not is affecting me very badly. I can feel myself dying inside in a very slow and gruesome way.

I do not know what to say anymore. But what I truly know is; things will never be the same again between us. That's a fact I have to try to live with now eventhough it's really hard and you're not making it any easier for me.

Someday you'd realise that I have always loved you.

/EDITED!




Farah drew that specially to cheer me up. I was really touched that I teared. Awwwh, thanks lovely and I love you very, very much! ^^

Currently I am watching Hindi movie online while waiting for Sunshine to call me back. I also wanna thank this Sunshine of mine for cheering me up also. Okayokay, I owe you kisses hahahaha! :P

/EDITED!

I am feeling very lethargic right. Hogged on the phone with Sunshine til 5am after a few days not doing so. Maybe I am gonna meet him later and give him what I owe him heh heh! *kenings naik-naik* Afterwhich, I am gonna meet the girls and we're going to the Botanical Garden.

And tomorrow, I have Projek Cerpen briefing at Caldecott Broadcast Centre. Mum will be accompanying me there.



Wednesday, June 10, 2009
185: boring life

My heart is aching right now cause I am missing you too much. But no matter how much I miss you, I could never tell this to you or even anyone. I shall just keep this words forever inside and the reason is because I know I can never, ever be with you again. I am facing that fact and moving on with life eventhough it's killing me slowly and gruesomely inside. But what can I do? I am just a weak human with flaws and imperfections that made too much mistakes and lost you completely.

I've promised to let you go on with life without any inference from me and now I will not regard you even as an ex boyfriend. But now you're just a stranger with a known name to me. I shall always hate you for breaking my heart when I trusted you not to. I shall not forgive you for making me live in this crap-filled world without you by my side. This heart shall not love again til it's back into one piece.
Nothing much happened yesterday. Another mundane day for me and I spent my time watching another Hindi movie. Didn't I tell you my life is becoming really boring?

I was feeling really bored so I wrote a very short malay essay. Please do check it out at http://intan-writings.blogspot.com :) Comments would greatly appreciated. Do comment also on the part of my cerpen which I am gonna submit to Projek Cerpen.

Anyways I am really sexcited! I am gonna hang out with Zee Luella and her friends later in Town, yay!

Random: I am craving for hot cheesy and yummy pizza!

TAG REPLIES!
AputPutera: Thanks for linking me up and you're linked too dude. :)
Ziela: If your mata sakit, wear shades k hahahaha!
PuteriNamirah: Of course lah the blogskin very lawa. Like the owner of the blog mah hahahaha! And yay, finally we're meeting up after years. See you this weekend babe! :)
Chacha: Wah! So many people complain about the background hahahaha! So now I've changed it. See I so baik right. Anyways I miss you lahhhhh! :)