Time check: 7.14AM

And I haven't slept since last night! Hogged on the phone with (insert name here) til 3plus in the morning. I don't know if it's a good or bad thing, but the conversation went well. Although I was suffering from severe period cramps which almost killed me(okay this part extra) and caused me to PMS alot, I managed to control my emotions and not get agitated so easily like I always do when I'm having my menses. I can get very, very touchy too. Anyways I had to strain myself from being oversensitive although at times during the conversation, I felt like cursing him. Haha but I didn't. I would just whine about certain things and at one point, I felt like crying without any reason. But I didn't do so cause I promised him and Syaffy, I would learn to control my emotions. And that's what I simply did last night. Yay me! I think that last night was the first time I didn't throw any tantrums while talking to (insert name here). See, I can be a good girl. LOL! And I deserve Junior for that. Don't ask me what/who is Junior, lol. It's just between me and him. Heh heh.. *kening naik-naik* Oh and I miss (insert name here)'s smell. Don't ask me what perfume he uses, cause he doesn't use any. I don't know why but I have this fetish of smelling the man I love although he's not wearing any perfume or cologne. I would then get addicted to the smell he has and would smell him each time we cuddle and hug. Now you all know I'm weird, lol.

I'm halfway to victory. My ingenious plan is working perfectly. It's indeed A for Awesome, lol. But I shall not speak too soon. You never know what could come in your way. Pardon me for being such a bitch but being screwed isn't fun. I may not even be sixteen yet, but you so know I'm more than that. So watch your back, lady.

You said you're always here. But how come I don't feel your presence? You told me that's because I didn't believe you are. Then why don't you make me believe? I feel so neglected by you. Or maybe I feel this way due to the unpredictable mood swings I've been having. I've also been feeling nothing but the opposite of happy. I can change for you, for the better. But the question's now will you actually be there to witness it all? And we shall do the Do and Don't regulations soon. See how much I wanna do this for you and it's hard, almost impossible for me to explain why. I miss you, Syaffy.

Then he said, "You're no ordinary person in my life."
And you never failed to plaster a smile on my face each day. Even when I'm feeling far from happy.

My brother just lost his mp3 player a few days ago and yesterday he lost his handphone. -.- See Mumsy, these are the reasons why you should not buy him any electronic devices and start buying me more. Heh heh! Anyways eversince his mp3 player is gone, he has officially become the human iPod. He sing all sorts of song. From WeTheKings's Check Yes Juliet to Taylor Swift's Teardrops On My Guitar and also from Hannah Montana's The Best Of Both Worlds to Spongebob Squarepants's theme song. -.- All of the singing is gonna damage my hearing soon, I swear. He said that he's only gonna stop singing when his mp3 player is found or when Mumsy buys him a new one. Til then, I'm gonna have to hear him sing every single night. AAAHHHH NO! *runs away and screams* More reasons for me to migrate to Pulau Ubin. Gonna start building my sampan now.

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This is for you, Farah babygirl. Please don't be upset and depressed over what happened. The world is too cruel sometimes. Nothing last forever and yes, good things will always come to an end. But look at the bright side babygirl, you'll always have me, Ziela babygirl and the rest. You know all of us love you so much! Although I'm unhappy with my own life, but seeing you unhappy makes me feel worser. I feel your pain, sister.

Sometimes we have to accept that things don't really go the way we want to and people we want to be with are not meant for us. It may be hard to accept the fact, but the end of day that's the fact we have to face and live with. Although it hurts, but I know you're way stronger than me. Sometimes you need to forget what you want and remember what you deserve. And of course, you deserve someone way better than Amad. I can assure that, babygirl. A wonderful friend and girl like you deserve the best of the best. I love you, forever and always.

Amad's not cute anymore cause he hurt my babygirl's feelings. Up yours eh Amad. *insert cb face* Guys are jerks but we girls sure can't live without them, can we?

Relationships are like cotton candy: all pretty, sparkly, sugary and tempting. But the minute you take a bite, what happens? They dissolve and leave you with tooth decay.