I was bored; so I came up with another short essay. I don't know if I can call it an essay since it's so short.

She suddenly feel so out of place. She feel totally out of sorts. For the moment, it may even feel like that she is never going to emerge from her sadness. She feel like that life is over and there's no meaning left for her. He means so much to her and she wish she could tell him now. But unfortunately, she would never be able to find the words without breaking down. When she tries to talk, she just don't know what to say because he doesn't feel the same.

She misses him but she can't decide whether she should see him or not. She want to see him because she miss him very, very much. But at the same time, she do not want to see him. The reason is because everytime she does, the fact that he don't see her the way that she sees him hurts her even more than usual.

But it's never too late. She still have chances in my life. She'll get up once again. She'll laugh once again. She'll live again and perhaps, she'll love again.

The essay above is again dedicated to that someone who thinks I like Faris or something. -.- I swear I feel like calling him up and shout, "I love you, bodoh!" to his ear or grab him then kiss his lips like I never did before lol. If only I had the courage to do all that which of course, I do not have and I think will never have. The little green monster named Jealousy paid me a visit yesterday. I shall not elaborate on this matter more. But what I know is that someone got it all wrong. Faris is a PART of my life but he IS my life. See, huge difference right? As much as I can't force him to love me again, it's as much as I can't force myself to stop loving him.

Anyways Faris force me to call him Abang Handsome for the rest of my life from today onwards. Shameless ass! -.- And bite my cheeks off if you dare uh uh uh lol. Anyways I do not know when I am gonna meet you again. My prepaid and ez-link card running low seh. Sad life or what. :(

On a brighter note, I'm gonna get my allowance soon since Mum will be getting her pay very, very soon. I have an overpowering urge to go shopping and finally, I can do it in a few days time, yay! Maybe I'll be going shopping with Abang Handsome cause he also wanna get new shirts.


Oh oh and and Hannah Montana the movie is premiering on 4 June! *jumps around* Who wanna watch it with me? If no one wants to, I'm gonna drag Abang Handsome to watch it with me. *evil grins* Or perhaps my babygirls. But I highly doubt so cause they're not fans of Hannah Montana. Or maybe I shall try asking that someone if he wanna watch it with me which I also highly doubt he would want to. :(

Did you ever regret holding my hand, my Edward Cullen?

/EDITED!

I am feeling very lethargic right now. I hogged on the phone with Dyno the pakcik til almost 3am last night. I'm lack of sleep these few days cause my nights are spent either talking to Dyno on the phone or I'll be on the laptop, talking crap with Abang Handsome online. I swear this handsome boy is super irritating! Now I wonder, how could someone so cute be so annoying? Hahahaha whatever it is, you're handsome k lol. Okay, stop smiling in front of your computer. I am just carrying your balls hahahaha. :P AND BABY, I LOVE YOU TOO K! HAHAHAHA MAMPUS! PERANGAI SIAK. -.-

Anyways the reason why I'm awake right now at 9.45am, it's because I need to run some errands then meet Ziela babygirl up at Hougang Mall. If not, I'll be sleeping like a pig til afternoon.

I dreamt that I drowned yesterday. -.- Suprisingly, today I am in a good mood. Okayokay, gotta bathe and get ready. Oh anyways my prepaid's low already. :(

My Jacob Black, I cannot tell you something that ain't real.