Sebenarnya diriku masih mengharapkanmu.

I never wanted to hate you but things are better this way. I wanna run far far away but what's the point? I know you would never care and let alone run after me. It saddens me that there's nothing I could do to be together with you again. I know that whatever I just said would not affect you in any way. Seeing you again after promising myself that I would not is affecting me very badly. I can feel myself dying inside in a very slow and gruesome way.

I do not know what to say anymore. But what I truly know is; things will never be the same again between us. That's a fact I have to try to live with now eventhough it's really hard and you're not making it any easier for me.

Someday you'd realise that I have always loved you.

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Farah drew that specially to cheer me up. I was really touched that I teared. Awwwh, thanks lovely and I love you very, very much! ^^

Currently I am watching Hindi movie online while waiting for Sunshine to call me back. I also wanna thank this Sunshine of mine for cheering me up also. Okayokay, I owe you kisses hahahaha! :P

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I am feeling very lethargic right. Hogged on the phone with Sunshine til 5am after a few days not doing so. Maybe I am gonna meet him later and give him what I owe him heh heh! *kenings naik-naik* Afterwhich, I am gonna meet the girls and we're going to the Botanical Garden.

And tomorrow, I have Projek Cerpen briefing at Caldecott Broadcast Centre. Mum will be accompanying me there.