I had quite a nice day yesterday. Went to the National library around 2pm in the afternoon alone. Did the first paragraph of my cerpen after almost an hour of cracking my head on what to write. Chatted with Farah online and she was feeling really bored. So I asked her to come down and accompany me which she did. She came around an hour later and we were famished. We then had our early dinner at Tong Seng. Afterwhich, we walked around Bugis Junction, Bugis Street and Iluma. I wanted to go to Haji Lane to check out House of Japan but this girl was freaking lazy to walk there. Since Bugis is a bore to us now, we decided to go somewhere else. Intially we wanted to take the bus to AMK but we purposely miss a few buses cause there were crowded with people. Then 51 came, we then decided to just take the bus back to Hougang and slack with Anna. Arrived in Hougang, we got ourselves an ice cream each then we called Anna up using the public phone as both of our prepaids are low. We waited for Anna nearby the playground as we talked about our exes. Farah kept mocking her ex boyfriend's voice which sound like Donald Duck hahahaha! Then I also told her about a few of my exes especially my first love. I swear we were all very kental then. Not long after, Anna came and we proceeded to the void deck we usually lepak. Showed what I wrote so far to Anna and Farah using my laptop, of course. Then went through my old photos and we all remember my Dora The Explorer hair. -.- The three of us then read a few of my MSN past conversations. Around 9pm, I decided to head home and they accompanied me at the bus stop til 62 came.

Just when I thought I no longer think about him, my thoughts ran towards his direction more than usual. Then I felt frustrated and angry at myself. I've let myself down again. I wish he's dead so that I won't have any reason to fill myself with false hopes.

Eversince that day, I suddenly feel that I should distance myself from her cause of him. I wanted things to be like before, I would share everything with her. But now I could not do so as I felt that I have built this wall between us and it's all because of him. Things feel awfully different now but somehow it's for the best. I would do whatever it takes to avoid and not see him ever again. I would try my very best not to step foot at Pasir Ris or Tampines unless I really have to. I'm this pathetic now. Oh God, what have I've become? Sometimes I feel she would dangle him on purpose in front me eventhough she knows I feel extremely jealous. I know I have no right at all to feel that way anymore but I can't help it. To me now, he's a stupid jerk. The king of all jerks eventhough he can be really interesting and even witty. But still, he's the undisputed champion of all-time jerks.

I should start thinking about the future and date people that actually stick around for a change.

/EDITED!

Finally got to hog on the phone with Sunshine and we talked til around 6am! We talked about almost everything. We had so many stories to share eventhough it has only been a few days since we talked and we even talked online everyday. From me complaining about someone to him with his non-stop huak huak which is becoming quite an irritant hahahaha! At one point, I was crying due to some reasons and he made me laugh with his perangai-ness. Promise I'll top up my prepaid soon and won't use the money to eat like I did yesterday lol! Don't ask, long story. :) Okay okay I miss you my favourite bodoh!

I'm gonna head down to the library again today, I guess.