"One thing I truely knew --- knew it in the pit of my stomach, in the center of my bones, knew it from the crown of my head to the soles of my feet, knew it deep in my empty chest --- was how love gave someone the power to break you." - Bella Swan, New Moon.

Everytime I tried to take a step at all, I see your face in my mind and I fall. I would suddenly smell the scent of you randomly cause I am missing you too much. But what could I do? There is nothing I could do but cry in silence every single night. Sadly, you can't hear me and you can't feel how hideous I've been feeling. I don't even expect you to cause I know I deserve this whole lot of pain. I would like to make you happy and erase all the pain I've caused. But then again, I have failed once and I know I would fail again somewhat. So I shall just let someone else make you happy and watch you from far. It will gruesomely kill me but I'll take that risk cause baby, I love you too much. And you deserve all the happiness you could get.

And my every try at love never works out. :(

Hi hi people. Forget the emo paragraph above, I just created a new How Well Do You Know Me quiz on Facebook yesterday and if you wanna prove that the only thing you know about me is not just my name, feel free to try the quiz - How Well Do You Know Intan Amanina? So far only Nurul and Farhan the pretty boy passed the quiz. The rest all failed lol wells, not their faults uh cause the answers to my questions in the quiz cheat people feelings only heh heh. ^^V

On a totally different note, I feel like baking cupcakes and brownies! Very random I know but I've wanting to bake cupcakes and then give it to someone special. Since I have no someone special, I shall just bake for my girls. And Faris, my lips is like sugar lol you know I know eh. *kenings naik-naik* And I am currently watching the first season of Power Rangers on YouTube. Laugh eh please laugh hahahaha! Faris is jealous cause I love red ranger lol and please eh, you're so not white ranger uh. I am pink ranger uh why lol dream on intan!


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Ya ALLAH. Please give me the strength to face all this. I am not strong enough to face this all alone and without You by my side. I need only You now. No one else but You, my creator. I know I've done too many sins and I know I deserve all this. But please make me stronger to face all this. Please wipe my tears away cause You're the one only who could do that, no one else. Please erase all the doubts I am having inside of me. Please forgive all my sins. Amin.

Don't you know it's hurting me too much? Too much that at times I wish that I would stop breathing. Cause breathing is so hard right now. All I could do is cry, cry at my own mistake and mess. Why did you have to go? WHY?