Hi, the past few days were blissful yet painful and my weekend had been a total bore. Been rotting at home and hogging the laptop + blasting music into my ears so I won't hear my thoughts. But it's stupid cause the lyrics seem to remind me of what I'm trying to forget. The more I want to push the feelings away, the stronger it grows. Ugh I really hate myself when my heart just refused to let my mind win.

I don't know why I bother ruining the pretty little flower when I know perfectly he loves me not. It feels like the whole world is crashing or even the sky is going to fall. All I did was to fantasize all day and night, just to keep on smiling. But when I'm slapped back to reality, everything goes otherwise. That's when my self esteem start to deplete.

Unfortunately, life isn't a romance song. The girl doesn't always get her guy. No one can understand the meaning of these eyes. But it wouldn't hurt if you at least try. Cause all I wanna do now is to tell you how beautiful you are, inside and out.

I promise I'll be there when your heart stop beating, when your last breath's taken away, in the dark when there's no one listening and in the times when we both get carried away. Cause the sun lights my through day, the moon and stars light my way at night but you light my way through life.

Anyways I shall pretend that these things doesn't occur. On a completely different note, I need to go shopping soon. I'm suffering from fashion crisis!

Blogger is being a bitch again and I can't upload photos. Curse you Blogger! :(

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Cause when the sun rises, I'm not gonna be there like the way I used to be. I'm gonna stop chasing and running in circles around you. At the same time, my heart still wants to be the one who you count on at times of cold. It wants you to know that in this world, you're never going to walk alone.

When I think about my feelings for you, it makes me feel small and insignificant. Tonight as I look at the stars, I realise that I am starting to know my place among them. What was I thinking? Dreaming of someone like you, someone who would never take even a look at me.

And I'm really really really starting to hate the fact that I'm not born with beautiful looks or body of a size zero model because then I'd get whoever/whatever I want. Well I should accept the fact that I have no looks or a nice body. I'm starting to get over it. Next year = starve starve starve.

Please kindly handover back my life because I'm leading this one without soul.

HAHAHAHA INTAN AMANINA, WHY SO DRAMATIC? -.-